FruitsBlogsket - A Fruits Basket Fansite

bloggy : waking up crying or sleeping?

2012-01-10T21:32:00.000-06:00

Has anyone woken up crying or screaming? I did. A lot of times. It's the reason why sometimes my friends are scared to sleep with me during a camp or a sleepover. I've had a lot of strange dreams and nightmares that I wanted away, some lovely dreams that made me think not to wake up anymore, and some sad dreams that made me wake up crying.

I woke up crying from these dreams

1. I woke up crying because I heard the song 'Return to Pooh Corner - Kenny Loggins' playing in my dream. I woke up really crying, but I found out that my dad was playing his CD on the stereo and so I wiped my face real quick or else he would've noticed me crying.

2. I woke up crying from my dream, because I remembered all the dogs I had in the past. It's the reason why I'm writing a short story right now about them. And I'm not really a dog person, I'm a cat person, but somehow, maybe I actually miss them too.

3. I woke up crying when in my dream, my mom brought me lunch to school; but I yelled at her because I didn't need her to bring my lunch to school. There was a lesson in this dream too. I continued to cry afterwards.

Nightmares that made me scream

1. I woke up screaming from my dream (or nightmare) when this lion like figure with wings dragged me at the top of a sky scraper, and both of us were falling. I saw its claws dig dip onto my wrist.

2. There was a dream where I was just looking around our living room then this black figure showed up on the reflection on my TV. It was as if I saw a ghost and then, I really felt like my body became chilly. I woke up screaming.

Some Lovely dreams I wouldn't forget

1. I was driving a car, and pulled over to fill my tank. The gas girl who was really beautiful said that she wanted to ride with me. After paying, she just left her job like that and both of us hit the road to wherever. We were laughing and sharing stories at each other and it felt really great because of the scenery.

2. I was a superhero that's able to multiply. And I fought crime like a boss. But the enemy found my weakness and I was saved by a superheroine. And I found out that she was my classmate in the dream. Haha.

HAPPY NEW 2012

2012-01-01T00:00:00.000-06:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

a history of FruitsBlogsket

2011-12-26T14:15:00.002-06:00

LOOKING BACK AND GOING BACK

It all started back in 2005. It was my freshman year studying in the University of the Philippines. And while I was just lying down on my bed, my roommate together with some of my friends were watching anime on the computer. By this point in my life, I've fallen away from being an 'otaku'. I mean I watched a lot of anime when I was in elementary. A lot. When I entered high school, I've completely lost interest. I never knew that my university friends would pull me back.

They were watching Naruto in my room. My friend burned 100+ episodes and he had this stack of CDs with him. I though, "What's so good about Naruto?" I heard about Naruto a year ago, back when I was in high school. But since I lost interest in anime during that period, I just ignored it.

I found it difficult not to join in on them, because they were all watching the computer. "So what the heck..." I thought. I stood up on my bunk bed and watched along with them. Since I wasn't familiar with Naruto, I was kept curious. And little by little it made sense why they're watching it. The story was so engrossing. And we couldn't stop playing the next episode either. "So this is Naruto?" So this is anime? I asked my friend if he brought other titles with him. "What genre do you prefer?" he asked. I said "...romantic comedy." And thus the start of our journey.

MY FRIEND NEIL

Neil is responsible for the stack of burned anime CDs in my dorm room. They were all subbed. My friend Neil showed me a couple of titles: Fruits Basket, Chobits, Onegai Sensei, and Hellsing. We watched Fruits Basket together with some friends in the room and... I was hooked in an instant. I fell in love with the story. And I didn't even know the term shoujo then. So Yeah. I watched a shoujo anime. And after those 26 episodes, I noticed immediately and said, "Neil, is this over? What happened next? They just come back home?" Neil answered that the Fruits Basket anime ending isn't really the ending -- the manga hasn't been completed yet (during that time). I searched for an anime fansite for Fruits Basket, and I only found a handful. I read some character profiles and I discovered more characters that were only exclusive to the manga. I wanted more of Fruits Basket and so I started reading the manga. But I wasn't satisfied.

HOOKED ON MAKING WEBSITES

Back tracking to the 2001, my older brother started a blog on blog-city.com, when it was still free. I was fascinated by it. "This is your home on the Internet?" I asked him. It was his space and people can read what he's writing about -- people anywhere. He could write what he wants. He had a website. I thought it was cool to have a website. And his design was awesome. It was so cool to see his work and I felt proud of him too. So that same year, I started one. I loved it. I loved the feeling of making one. It was fun.

DISCOVERING WHAT A FANSITE IS

The next year, I had a fair knowledge of designing a simple site. And my favorite cartoon, Disney's The Weekenders, was no longer airing on our cable. I felt the need to search for more information about the cartoon. I wanted to know if there were other episodes that didn't air on our cable, episode summaries, and some screenshots. I found this fansite on Yahoo's Geocities.com (which is no longer in service) about The Weekenders and I was still young back then. But I found that fansite awesome. Back then, I didn't know much about HTML nor any serious design coding. But I noticed that the website was no longer being updated. So you know where this is going-- I-- *laughs* I sent an email to the owner writing I wanted to adopt the website. AHAHA. Unfortunately, the author didn't reply. HAHA. I was such a creeper. That's when I marked my word: I will build more than a blog; I'll create my own fansite SOMEDAY.

THE TERM 'MORE THAN A BLOG'.

Forward to 2004, my friend Rey, introduced me to Blogskins.com, where I could find templates for my personal high school blog. 2004 was a very emotional year. It's also the start of my HTML journey.

Basically, I taught myself HTML. No books; I just followed examples. It was a challenge, but I found it fun to code here and there. I played around with templates and that's why I thank Rey so much for showing me everything I needed.

THE JOKE THAT STARTED IT

Forward to September 2005, back to the first year of university, I showed my friend Janus my blog and he also became interested on making a blog. But he didn't know how to write nor to code. He wanted a blog, but he doesn't really have the time to write, so I made joke, "... why don't I write your blog for you?" then he laughed at me. "Are you going to play as me?"

BLESSING IN DISGUISE

October came -- I went home just in time because I had chickenpox. It took about two weeks for me to recover from chickenpox. So I was stuck in my room. At least I had TV and a computer. I also remember receiving a text message from my high school friends that they were throwing a party because it was sembreak. I missed out bigtime. But I wasn't at a loss.

I had the time I needed. I still wanted to watch anime, know more or do more about the titles I was following. Knowing that I wanted to do more, I wanted to express, write and design, taking into account that there was only a handful of Fruits Basket fansites on the web, I said to myself and rolled up my sleeve, "Let's build that fansite." Now, I know what fansite I'll be building.

ANIMEXTENSION FIRST

I started building the foundation to my fansite called Animextension, where it would be a portfolio of the anime series I finished or the titles I was following. While doing the site, Love Hina was airing on the TV. And I found Love Hina awesome as well. I added Love Hina first because it felt daunting to create a site for Fruits Basket with some missing content. But I added a section for Fruits Basket afterwards.

Animextension was basically a portal; it was meant to be a portal for micro-sites. I was creating a micro-site for Love Hina and Fruits Basket, but I wasn't really good at naming websites back then. Plus, I just wanted to get it done. So I named a micro-site for Love Hina as Can You Feel Love Hina (a long name) and a micro-site for Fruits Basket as OnFruitsBasket. Several other titles followed, including a micro-site for School Rumble, InuYasha, Trigun and Samurai X. It took quite some time designing, debugging and adding content on each micro-site. I was doing this all by myself.

When it was safe for me to go out, when I got rid of my chickenpox, I stopped working on Animextension for a week to hang out with my high school friends. On the last week of my sembreak, I re-watched Fruits Basket on cable and other anime titles as well. And after checking the OnFruitsBasket, the FruBa micro-site, I noticed that it was kind of bland. You can only find character profiles, and some pictures. I thought that there should be more content to it. Definitely.

BRAINSTORM AND REALIZATION

One night, while I couldn't sleep, I had an epiphany. I had this brainstorm and it was hilarious. My joke on Janus echoed on me, "Why don't I write your blog for you?" THAT'S IT! Since I had already some experience on blogging, and in connection to my desire to express, design, write, build a fansite for Fruits Basket, I will make a blog for the Fruits Basket characters! I'll blog for them!

There was still time left from my sembreak. So I went to work on it. What should I name the site(s)? I thought I should give a proper name this time; a name that's simple, easily remembered and easily understood. Normally people put the word 'shrine' together with the name of an anime character's fansite, but I didn't want to use 'shrine'. Putting a shrine felt like I was worshiping an anime character. Which is silly.

Lord of the Rings was still popular back then. And I'm a big Lord of the Rings fan, so instead of writing shrine, I picked shire -- meaning 'a region'. It made sense. So I created Kyo's Shire first, mainly because I could relate to him better.

SHIRES!

I didn't know the term roleplaying at that time. Nor fan fiction. Seriously. I didn't. But it turned out that writing a diary for a certain character already existed-- nevermind-- still, I started blogging about Kyo's fanfic misadventures. I found it really fun and it was also a great exercise. However, when Kyo's blog was complete, I asked myself, "Should I be making a blog for Tohru, Yuki and Shigure as well?" I realized I might've stepped on a landmine, because Fruits Basket has a big cast. Should I be making a blog for all of them?

The answer is... certainly.

I think I made a site for Shigure next. And then Yuki and Tohru's site simultaneously -- until Shigure's household was complete. Finally, I was able to decide on the story format that I'd be writing each blog/journal/diary entry to be intertwined with each other. For example: Kyo's writing about Tohru, Tohru might've written something about Kyo and Yuki, and Yuki might've written something about Kyo or Shigure-- you get the idea. Since I made it a goal to create a shire for each Fruits Basket character, I made a blog template. And eventually, I've been able to create a blog (or a shire) for each character.

INTRODUCING SHIRECENTRAL

I never stopped adding more content to onFruitsBasket microsite. Little by little, I've been able to find some sources to the Fruits Basket manga. That's when I wrote a list of every FB character. Eventually, I made a blog for almost everyone, including Shigure's assistant (a minor character). While completing the shires for onFruitsBasket, I was also making a blog for the Love Hina and Chobits characters. In an experiment, I've decided to put them in a portfolio site of their own, called Shirecentral. It would give you links to each of these blogs that I've created. Now that I think about it, I was such an otaku back then.

GALLERY COMPLETE AND GOODBYE ANIMEXTENSION

More and more content were added for each microsite of Animextension that it became confusing to navigate. It was time to retire my fansite. It was two years old. But it served its purpose well. The microsites were well enough to be on their own and they were too big to be called a 'micro'site. So I called in the decision to name a proper site with a clear purpose: to express my fan content and promote that anime title. onFruitsBasket becomes FruitsBlogsket (a mouthful), Can You Feel Love Hina stayed as CYF Love Hina (will be renamed Blog Hina soon) and Chobits became Chonegai (dormant and resting at blogdrive).

ANOTHER EPIPHANY

At this phase of learning HTML, I've come to discover the wonderful function of a simple code called 'marquee'. Back in 2006, instant messengers were still hip. And I've wanted to do an 'experiment'. The term Worldplay isn't recognized and I guess people don't know what Worldplay is. This is where I've wanted to play the world of an anime setting. Play with the dates, the weather, the locations and the people altogether to form a Worldplay. (I coined 'Worldplay' here, haha. And that was back in 2005 or 2006, lol) Anyway, since chat was still popular and with the use of the code 'marquee', I've been able to format a chat-like entry for the Worldplay experiment.

I've made a Worldplay for Fruits Basket called Furuba Worldplay (it was Furuba Territorial Project at first), a Love Hina Worldplay called Love Hina Project, and a Kare Kano Worldplay. I'm currently working on Harima Crossing, a Worldplay for School Rumble. With this kind of interesting and funny format of writing entries, I continued writing about the 'conversations' of the characters. Each conversation takes place in a specified location, for example Shigure's living room. It was just an experiment, but I kept adding and adding until I've completed the Shigure house markup. In Furuba Worldplay, I've also added the park, the Sohma Hotsprings, Ayame's specialty store and the Sohma Grounds. Furuba Worlplay is still growing by the way.

FRUITSBLOGSKET - A Fruits Basket Fansite

Fansites that I've noticed were only updated with the news specific to that fansite. In effect, it felt like it was sort of dead. In order to keep updating this fansite, I've made it as my blog too. I've decided that FruitsBlogsket be a blog and an experimental site, powering a Worldplay site called Furuba Worldplay. It started from a micro-site and left to be called as FruitsBlogsket in summer 2006. It was still premature and I've decided to work on it further adding most of the contents last October 2006. Similar to adding a webpage to the Worldplay, and the Shires, I've also placed a container for the gallery, FruitsBlogsket Gallery. The latest addition would be the Furuba Station, a station for the FB soundtracks.

FruitsBlogsket is on its 5th year and it's my baby, and I look at it as some sort of reflection of myself -- take note: some sort. There has been a lot of stories that has been told, sad stories, happy stories, funny stories, frustrating stories, confusing stories, stories about the reality of life.

ARIGATOO MIINA!

What a long entry.

Thank you for your visit. You don't know how much I appreciate it. Thank you for the hits and it lets me keep going. Thank you for the comments and letters. Thank you for the inspiration. It's just awesome. It has been an amazing ride.

bloggy : exam? yeah, whatever.

2011-12-05T04:28:00.004-06:00

I almost fell off my chair when I checked my exam schedule. My first final exam, Micro-economics, has been pulled to Wednesday. I haven't started my final exam studying yet and I doubt I would be studying this Monday. It's funny and dangerous at the same time, because I don't want to read my lectures. I need a motivation and a jolt over the distractions at home. Or maybe I'm just tired and burned out. Anyway, it's really depressing that I only want to pass that exam and not get a flying grade on it. Once that Microeconomics is over, Thursday's going to be really a day off. I also have work after the final exam. I hate it when that happens. There was one time that I've had two midterms and then I had work afterwards. Anyway, if I do get bored at work, I'll study in the office.

What I'm really preparing for is my Programming II final exam. When my instructor gave us our worksheet, I felt miserable and confused. I hope they don't change the date. It'll be on the Tuesday evening. I'm not all against changing exam dates. I know some people don't like it, since it's Christmas and they've got the month planned out. But changing the exams to an earlier date can be a good thing and a bad thing. It's good because I can finish early provided that I was able to study. It's bad if I didn't get to study; less time to crunch those notes. I was just a bit surprised. It's funny, I'm surprised, and yet I don't want to study. GAH!

Is your Computer a boy or a girl?

2011-11-12T20:28:00.001-06:00

Like to find if your computer's a boy or a girl?

1. Open Notepad
2. Type the following line in notepad:
CreateObject("SAPI.SpVoice").Speak"I love you"
3. Save file as: computer_gender.vbs
4. Run the file ... If you hear a male voice, you have a boy ;) If you hear a female voice, you have a girl :)

11.11.11

2011-11-11T23:11:00.000-06:00

Have a great weekend everyone! Christmas is just around the corner!

FruitsBlogsket is 5 years old!

2011-10-29T00:00:00.003-05:00

Yes, Kyo. It's a mouthful.

bloggy : I'm thankful.

2011-10-16T06:52:00.001-05:00

I've been looking life from a wrong perspective. Thanksgiving day is long over, but thanksgiving itself isn't over. This past Saturday was something to remember. When everyday seemed the same, when problems never ended, when the demands in life kept coming, my dad told me that we should learn how to say thanks. I mean, I have to admit that I don't feel grateful when you see so much problems wearing you down in life. It's true that problems can take all of your attention, but I'm missing out the fun in life when I forget the good things I have. When there are problems, we worry. And I always worry. Sometimes I couldn't help but worry. It's stupid, because I know it'll get fixed somehow, but I still worry thinking what if it doesn't get fixed.

Take for example. I always worry about work. What if I don't make it past the quota? How can I keep up with everybody? How can I compete with the other people? How can I get better at work?

I always worry about school. Did I study enough to pass my midterm? How can I get the best grade? Will I fail this subject? Am I doing okay to pass every course I paid for? How will I pay for my tuition fee next term? Is this really the degree that I want? What if Mom and Dad find out that I'm still not sure if this is my course? Does it mean that I've just wasted time if I shift?

I always worry about life. What is it that I really want to do? Will I ever get married? Will I get a decent job? Am I going to be the man I want to be? How would I know what's best for me?

I always worry. And I lose sleep thinking and thinking and thinking. Some say it's normal. Some say it's useless. Some say it's boring. And some say it's stupid. It has to stop.

During this worry, I forgot the good things that I have. First of all, and it's not a small thing, I'm thankful to have my family with me. I have friends abroad and they're all by themselves earning money to send home. One of my friend lost her mom from cancer. And another of my friend's mom passed away from cancer as well. I read pain and suffering from my classmate saying that she hates her parents and she couldn't wait to move out. I'm just thankful to have my family right now. I'm just thankful that I have caring, understanding, patient and loving parents.

I'm thankful that we're okay. My home, the Philippines, is in a state of calamity from the floods and there's another typhoon headed there again. I saw my relative's photos on the web and I was very much appalled about how people slept on rooftops, how they were posting 'we need drinking water' on Facebook, how I found the situation difficult. We don't have floods here, there's no fault-line where I live and weather disturbances is never an issue. When winter comes, all we have to do is dress properly for it. We've had our share of hardship when we still lived in the Philippines and our home was always flooded. I'm thankful that we don't have to deal with such difficult situations anymore.

I'm thankful for what I have. I'd like to slap myself for forgetting how blessed I am. It looks like I'm never satisfied. I have a job. I go to school. I eat three times a day. I'm able to eat when I'm hungry. I have five computers, four of them I bought with my own money. I can buy what I need. I have clothes with me. We own a house. I have lots of videogame consoles, PSX, PS2, PS3, XBox, Gamecube, XBox360, Wii, PSP, DS, DSi; I can play so much videogames and I can play in my own room undisturbed. I have access to a fast Internet. I can watch whatever I want; Filipino TV series, movies, anime. And I have money to buy manga and books for my education. I remember the time when I had to photocopy 60 pages of notes from one book that my whole class needed. I have a bed and it's warm. I have a cellphone and I can ask my dad or brother for a ride or I can call for pizza. I have all this resources and I'm thankful. Oh yeah, and I have a website *I'll tell you a story about this in the future*. It's so dumb why I feel bored sometimes.

I'm thankful for the opportunities I have. Like I said, I have work, when lots of people I know are struggling to find one. I go to school, when my cousins don't even want it anymore because it's expensive and some of them want to study further. I've been given the opportunity to experiment with myself. I've learned how to write. I've learned how to draw. I've learned how to play drums. I've learned how to become one-step better. And I should be thankful. I have friends who are dying to learn how to play a guitar, but they stop because they don't have access to an instrument nor the time to learn or a teacher to teach them. I'm thankful for my dad telling me that I also have the opportunity 'to say no' if I don't like what's happening. If I don't like the job or if I don't like the school, look for something else. Other people have no choice. They have no choice but to keep on working and keep on studying for the course they don't even like so that they can earn a living. Isn't it great if you've been given a choice to say yes AND no? not 'OR' ... I meant 'AND'. Meaning if you've said yes, you can still say no afterwards.

I'm thankful I'm okay. There's no problem with my health. I haven't gotten sick for as long as I can remember. And I'm not paying the air that I currently breathe. I'm not sick and my bro gives me multivitamins for free because he works in a pharmacy.

I'm thankful I have friends. They help me. They keep me motivated. They keep me inspired. They keep me company. They're there when I'm bored, when I'm happy, when I'm sad. I have people with me. And when they have troubles as well, I listen to them. I help them. I keep them motivated. I push them to be inspired *hopefully*. I keep them company by doing lots of silly things. When they're bored, when they're happy, when they're sad, I'm here and there for my friends. And whenever we meet, I feel glad that I made some friends here. I'm thankful. Because I get a lot doing simple things with my friends. And those things are sometimes hard to find such as happiness.

I know problems will keep coming. Who am I kidding? But without them, I'd be clueless in life. When problem comes, we find solutions. Without problems, there'd be no solutions as well. So if I haven't had so many problems in life, I wouldn't know so any solutions. So I'm thankful that I got to face a lot of problems. I've learned so many things solving these problems. They're everywhere. It's like a game. I have so many quests to complete. But I'm sure I'd get exp afterwards. You know how it is, the bigger the quest, the bigger the exp.

bloggy : still here. still awake

2011-09-25T04:23:00.001-05:00

My head feels like it's going to explode. It's throbbing right now, but I can't sleep. I am back to those times where I find virtually no time for writing. It's back to those epic Tuesdays and long Saturdays, back to when the real worth of a day off is realized, and back to abuse every free time you can find. It's my free time right now, 4:02 AM, I'm going to church this morning and so I'm wondering how much 'sleep' I could get. That is, if I'm able to sleep tonight. Writing helps me fall asleep. Ironically, it can also give me additional headache.

Charisse from my To Be Continued project.

When break comes I'll be sure to share you the original stories I've written. They're all web novels, and I plan to publish them on paper *crosses fingers* when I'm old and matured enough. Plus, I'm going to need some writing courses in university. I really plan to be a writer in the future. My friend already is a writer. I believe I can do it.

I showed this site to some of my campus buddies and they said that it looks awesome. *thanks* I told them I started it back in 2005, but I made the front page (FruitsBlogsket Main) early 2006. FruitsBlogsket will celebrate its 5th birthday on October 29. That day's going to be really special for me -- for a lot of reasons.

My sleep's knocking now. Good night everyone... erm. Good morning to all.

bloggy : and he dumps this entry

2011-09-14T04:28:00.000-05:00

Just gonna dump out what I've missed writing these few days.

I just filled my first 'drafts' notebook. It's where I put my draft entries in writing. That notebook was about two hundred pages, so I'm really sure how it got filled. It's probably because I'm writing about life, anger, devotion, inferiority, depression, love and anime or ladida. I find it very helpful for an aspiring writer, to keep one handy. I get the most interesting things when I least expect it.

I just missed writing about 9/11. Has it been ten years already?

Since school has already started, I'm back to the days when I would appreciate the worth of a day off. As you know, I don't have any. I leave the house seven days a week. So I can't wait for thanksgiving. That's my next day off. But I guess... when thanksgiving comes... that means I'd have to leave home again, so I can go to my relative's house for thanksgiving.

I wonder when can I just stay home for the day. I'll make a day if I have to.

My professor said that it's not true to tell someone that you don't have time to something. Everybody gets the same 24 hours. Our priorities are just different. So when he asked us if we read chapter one already, and we said no, he told us it's not because you didn't have time to read. We weren't able to read it because we had different priorities. Good thing that course was over.

Long Tuesdays and Epic Saturdays. Sigh. I get really stressed during these days. Work and school at the same time makes a really long day -- that's every Tuesday for me. Saturdays are epic. I wake up in the morning to work and then head for drum practice. Come home with a headache every Saturday night, and then I have to prepare a lesson for Sunday before I sleep. Although, I always get a good night sleep afterwards. It's really great to sleep knowing I've accomplished so much in one day.

Actually, I'm experiencing a mental block. It's an utter fail and a complete mess right now; I have a mental block on my novels (ALL of them), and a mental block on fansite updates. iFail.

While I was on my way home, I saw someone riding this bicycle with very high handlebars. There's nothing wrong with the picture except for three things: 1.) it looked like he was having a hard time steering the 'bike', 2.) he looked drunk, 3.) it was already 10:30 at night. If he was showing his bicycle off, there was no one else on the street to see. He might endanger other people, say the motorists (coz' he was riding and curving beside the sidewalk) and he can endanger himself as well. It was just really an odd sight for me.

Wow, it's 4:28AM on my clock. It's okay. My class starts at 6pm. But I can imagine the weird look on your face. Summer break is over, but sleep cycle is still messed up.

bloggy : on your marks

2011-09-05T23:36:00.000-05:00

I just got home from our last minute camping. My break is officially over and I'm about to head back to business. Wow. Three months of no day off. Will I survive? I will. I'm not that worried anymore. My next break would be the Christmas break. Can't wait for it. It's the -ber months already, right? It's so fast.

While I was lying on my bed, I was thinking if I were to take a hiatus here. But no, I'm not taking any hiatus. I have great feeling that there'd be loads of stuff to write about. So there won't be a hiatus. It's been a quick break for me, just a month of break, but I've been able to do a lot of personal stuff. It's also my reason why I haven't been able to make updates, but I will go back working on the fansite because writing here is an outlet.

From here on, the journey starts again. I am writing right now to record what that I feel peaceful. Let me change into my work uniform and get everything started. Another chapter is about to unfold and I hope everyone reaches their own happy ending for this chapter.

bloggy : when dad made a promise by sam1

2011-08-25T05:23:00.007-05:00

This is how my schedule would look like this fall term. Monday, I work during the evening. Tuesday, I go to school in the morning and work in the evening. Wednesday, I have classes in the evening (programming Zzzz...) at 6-9pm. Thursday, classes in the morning. Friday, classes in the morning. Saturday, I have work the whole afternoon and drum practice in the evening. Sunday, I have to go to church. So I pretty much don't have a day off just to stay at home. I'm a home body, by the way. I'm telling myself to suck it up for 12 weeks and I'll have a relatively lighter load during the winter term. That's why I don't want to quit my job. Because, without it, what will I do after those 12 weeks?

Anyway, I've been able to play with my band again. It's the band we've formed back in high school. We haven't kept in touch recently because, like me, everyone became busier after leaving high school. I'm just glad one of my friends is going to learn how to play guitar because we need another guitarist.

Here's a short story from me. Sam1 is my pen name when I write original short stories, poems and novels.

When Dad Made a Promise
by Sam1

One day, there was a happy family. The couple had only one child, but they couldn't be any happier. Dad cherished his son so much that when he was in the crib, dad told him, "I'll never let something bad happen to you. I promise."

Their only son was excellent in school. He learned very quickly. He was great all around at school. Still, he enjoyed playing, like other children do. He helped at home with chores as well. He loved spending time with his family -- a good son.

During his 12th birthday, a tragedy occurred when his mom died from a car accident. Both of them witness mom pass away in the hospital and the boy held his dad's hand tight. Dad looked down, and the boy looked up. They saw each of them crying. Then dad knelt and preciously hugged him. "I will never let something bad happen to you. I promise." he whispered to his son.

From then on, everything turned sour. Their family slowly started to decay. And as time passed, the son gradually changed his image. He began turning his back on school. He began to ignore his house chores. He seldom went home. He started smoking. He started drinking and having vises.

Dad felt depressed. Dad felt lonely but he kept strong. He strived and persevered to keep his family close. Despite being disappointed, he held on to what he promised. "I will never let something bad happen to you, I promise."

When the boy reached the age of twenty, things turned from bad to worse. The son committed a heinous crime. And the punishment for his crime was death penalty. And when the day of the execution had arrived, dad couldn't believe what was happening. There was six hours left before his son's death. Dad was scared but he thought of his promise.

There was 4 hours left, then 3, 2 and came down his last hour before his son's death. Dad decided to visit his son in his cell. Their conversation was short but colorful. The boy apologized to his dad. Father and son couldn't hide their sadness. Dad sobbed and tried so hard to put up a smile. Before the boy was about to leave his cell, dad hugged him so tight that he didn't want him to go. "I will never let something bad happen to you." he promised again.

The boy left his cell to receive the punishment. It was very quiet as the clock ticked 30 minutes left. Then 15, 10, 5... finally it came down to the last minute.

The prison used a manual bell for the decision. "If the bell will sound, then the decision for your death will be carried on." told the warden. Everyone agreed.

From the last minute, to 30, to 10, and to the last second that passed, the order was carried. A jail guard assigned for the bell, pulled the string. But the bell did not ring. He tried once more, but nothing was heard. After 5, 10, 20 more attempts still the bell did not ring. Then the jailguard noticed blood pouring down the cord. He looked up as he saw a man with with blood all over his hands, chest and his head. It was a man who took every pound the giant bell had to offer so it couldn't sound. It was Daddy... who made his promise.

bloggy: open letter

2011-07-30T01:51:00.003-05:00

To tell You the truth, I'm scared of my fall term. Mom, found her job that she was looking for and I am thankful. We've been discussing that for a while. And I am thankful. She said that I can now quit my job and concentrate on my studies so I can take more than 3 subjects per term. I can't take more than 4 subjects because that's too much for a working student like me. Fall term starts on September 7th and they will end on November 23rd. I don't want to quit work because I can't depend on them all the time. As I've made my intention clear last year, I wanted to help Mom and Dad alleviate some of the expenses. I want to work because I also have some things I want to buy. Even though I can apply for a student loan, I plan to save money for the future.

As I was reviewing my schedule for the fall term, I noticed that it's almost identical to last year's schedule. But I only have one Math subject on the winter term. And I'm planning to take subjects for spring of 2012 as well. My computer course is every Wednesday, 6-9pm. Lab is on Friday. I work in the evenings. I will be spending more time away from home in the evenings. And I'm just realizing that I will only have one day of rest, Sunday. I will be either at school or at work from Monday to Saturday. Despite the rest on Sundays, I won't be home neither. Still I thought to myself that it'll only be for 12 weeks.

I was given an option in my head that I could drop that computer course because computer courses are hard. But I believe that I need that course. If I drop that subject, I can gain a day off. But if I dropped the subject, that would prolong my study even further to a year.

I remembered what my mom said, after I registered my subjects, she asked me if I could handle my load. What did she mean by that? I said I would handle it, because I want to graduate. She was concerned, I think. I know it's hard. But I feel that if I take this subject off, I'd be making a mistake. I'd be wasting the time. And if I finish this subject and pass it, it would a huge achievement. With You, anything is possible.

I don't know where to start thanking You. After what happened last year, I want to experience You again. I didn't want to drop it because I want to put my faith in You. I want to find out what You have for me, the best things that You've laid for me. I know it's going to be a lot of work, I know it's going to be really hard, I know it's going to be really exhausting. But I want to experience You because, in You, there is wholeness of joy. There's so much I can gain from You. Even though I'm scared, even though I really don't know what will happen to me this year, I am excited to find out what You have planned for me. I ask for Your wisdom this year, my God. I bring You back the glory. I am very grateful. I really don't know where I should start thanking You.

This is my solemn prayer. And also an open letter. In Jesus Christ's name,
Amen.

bloggy: face on the desk

2011-07-14T17:47:00.006-05:00

I'm on a slump. I don't know if it's because I'm tired, if it's writer's block, if I'm burned out or if it's my fear of writing. But the obligations and appointments are driving me nuts. I can't truly find some time for myself and do the things that I've been wanting to do. Before me is the painful truth that there will always be something that needs to be done; I'm needed for something here and I'm needed for something there. Ugh, I just need to be away. I promised myself I won't waste the summer because I'm not ready for another 10 months of school yet. I've lost 10 months worth of sleep, so I'm still trying to catch the Zs even if I sleep all day. Yeah, so maybe I'm still cranky for sleep. That's all. If there's the chance to sleep, I'm taking it. I'm hoping I could swing my momentum towards inspiration asap.

update: currently planning how to add the next 'significant' addition to FruitsBlogsket.

bloggy : A shout to Summer!

2011-06-30T21:21:00.001-05:00

Summer's here! It has become an understatement to say that time comes so fast. June's almost at an end; I've lived more than half of 2011 already. To slow down the time, I've promised myself that I'd be doing a lot of things this summer. Augh, I don't even want to mention fall yet. Now that I've finished my school year -- FINAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLY -- I should just enjoy this break. It's the break that I've been WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAITING FOOOOOOOR. You can only imagine how happy I am. *sobs tears of joy*

I'm elated to go back into my writing mode. I've been thoroughly occupied with other obligations. I have a great feeling that my school year wrapped up pretty well. The ups and downs, the exhaustion and the inspiration, the sweat and the tears, my first academic year was a COMPLETE experience for me. And I'm grateful.

Blog updates are a Go! But what do you guys plan to do this summer? I hope you have a productive and a fun-filled summer too.

bloggy: when Monday comes...

2011-05-29T15:33:00.008-05:00

I hope it ends fast. There's five more weeks left. Five more weeks and I'm done with my first year. I'm not supposed to go to school this spring. I'm supposed to be on a school break. But since I dropped a subject last term, I have to take a 3-cred subject so I won't fall behind. You can only imagine how tired I am and how eager I am for a break. Five more weeks and I'm free! If people bother me during my summer break, I might turn green, rip my shirt and SMASH!

Let's see them try.

You can't underestimate the people who work and study at the same time. Give them credit because it's so hard. Others can't grasp the depth of how much challenges a working student faces everyday. If you're in high school and you work -- kudos to you. If you're in university and you work -- kudos + hands down.

When summer comes, students get a summer job. I'll pass, since I already have a job. After all, I'll still be working when summer comes. Although since school is finished, life wouldn't be that demanding. To feel the effect of the summer break, I'm going to book for vacation. I think I can apply for a paid vacation.

How many months have passed since I lost so much sleep? Ten months. Five more weeks.

There's also one thing I want you guys to know: I CAN'T WAIT FOR MONDAY TO FINISH! I have this big exam tomorrow and I have work afterwards. Gonna wake up early and gonna stay up late. I work in the evenings. It's a not so typical Monday, but I'm used to not so typical... sadly. Long hours away from my sweet sweet bed. Now I know the true worth of the beloved term 'day-off'. I can't even spend time with my Sims. Or with my pets in Pet Society. Haha.

I have an idea! Let's just quit work and quit school altogether. After all, if you're not happy with what you're doing, then stop.

Just kidding.

Let's get it ooooouun!

I got the drafts right there!... among the stickies... the one with the color... see it?

Furuba Worldplay *yes, that's the name of my new Fruits Basket fansite* will be accessible on Tuesday, 5/31. I'm completing the last details and also programming it to be SEO'ed -- figuring a way that would make it easy to find for search engines like Google or Bing. I'm very excited! I anticipate it to complement FruitsBlogsket, A Fruits Basket fansite. haha. Also, I'm gonna update the FB chirpy widget's layout to make it more suitable for FB Blogs.

bloggy : mondays, sigh.

2011-05-16T05:40:00.004-05:00

It's Monday again.

I have one concern at work: sometimes they set my schedule wrong. And I don't want to argue with my manager. I avoid it as much as possible. I work three days. Mondays and Wednesdays I work 5-10pm. Last week they set my Monday 5-11pm but I specifically wrote 5-10pm, and so they made corrections. I can't work past 10pm, I have university work to finish. And I'm barely getting proper rest as it is now. I hope my schedule gets fixed quickly.

Finally, I've registered an account for that business simulation game for my business course. It's such a drag. But it's interesting at the same time. 30% of my grade will come from that game. It's on. I'm looking forward to buy the other companies (the other groups) so we can own the competition.

*looks at the window* Aww, the sun's here. I messed up my sleep again.

Regarding FruitsBlogsket updates: I'll be creating another Fruits Basket fansite to complement FruitsBlogsket. I'm aiming to complete it before the end of spring. On that note, I'm also working on two other layouts for different websites.

Another thing, I have additional Fruits Basket stuff to add, so expect significant additions to the fansite this spring and summer.

bloggy : sleep displacement

2011-05-01T02:03:00.000-05:00

As of now, I am 32 hours awake. I... I'm just sooo happy that I was able to pull of such an epic Saturday. Saturdays are always hectic for me. When in fact, a typical Saturday means 'time to party'. For me, it's a long day at work + some other stuff that needs to be done.

Today's May 1st and I'm looking at my clock. It reads 2:03AM. 32 hours. I remember my high school life [I lost more than 32 hours of sleep]. I woke up last April 29 at 6pm. No sleep afterwards. I went to work at 11am Saturday, April 30th. Work ended at 5pm. Went home, got tidied up and went out again for drum practice at 6pm. Then at 8pm, we went to my cousin's birthday. And I had to fix a computer there as well. Everything was a-okay. Work finished properly. Practice had some progress. Birthday was fun. And I fixed my cousin's computer -- instead of having to pay for $50 to a tech.

Went home around 1am. I'm finally feeling the effect of wear and tear. Will I do this again next Saturday? I feel like I've unlocked an achievement somewhere. How many points should I get? But remember children, do not stay up late often. Not only would pimples ruin your face, the veins underneath the eyebags would start to appear.

bloggy : Tadaima desu!

2011-04-27T02:24:00.009-05:00

"Adjutant online. Welcome back, Commander." And it's good to be back. I've finished my finals, and I'm just enjoying my week break before my spring term starts. Don't worry, it's just one subject. I'm not really obligated to take one subject as I've finished 30+ credits. I need 120 credits to graduate so I'm on the track for a four year degree/major. I'm taking a business course. I'm seriously considering a degree in business. And programming.

Anyway, how's everyone?

I've learned a lot of things about my life since my break. I've learned that having a part-time job + school is helluva lot difficult than it sounds. Especially when you have to save for at least $2000 for a school term.

What I'm about to write, please read carefully: if your parents are willing to pay for your university (I'm talking about having to pay an average of $60000 for your total post-secondary education), DON'T TAKE THAT BLESSING FOR GRANTED. Take the opportunity and thank your parents dearly. It gets me real pissed when someone doesn't appreciate the good things before them. And here's another bonus thought, if you have a part-time job but you have your parents paying for your education, enjoy your work. That job gets you what you want without having to worry about something else. That is all.

If it's not in your capacity to enroll in post-secondary, then don't think that your decision is final. Take your time and probably work somewhere you want for a while. But don't set it in stone that you're never going to post-secondary. You'll know very much of your potential.

Taking a break from blogging has made me realize that something is missing. It's supposed to be a break, I know. But I mean, after working, after all that studying, after reading the email, news and shoutouts on the net, I wondered what I should do? This can't be everything in my life! It wasn't time to sleep yet. I wasn't in the mood to play videogames, it was already dark so I couldn't just frolic outside, there's nothing new to watch, I've read what I needed to read, what do I do?! It hit me and I've discovered another reason not to drop my websites: blogging helps keep an outlet open in my life.

Note to self: try new things. Then ask a friend to take pictures of the fail and facepalm moments. Hilarious.

I got bored. Yeah, I didn't know it would be really boring without having to touch my blog accounts. Anyway, I'm back. Winter woes? It's over. Finals? Done. Burnout? I'm passed that. Spring term? Ready for it. Ring the bell!

Now that I'm back, let's get down to business.

bloggy : March to April Hiatus

2011-03-20T07:00:00.003-05:00

I've put a lot of thought on it. I've done some brainstorming in my computer, on my desk, and at work. I've also done the PMI method or the plus, minus and interesting. I've come to a conclusion that I'll be taking a break for the following weeks. But let me get some things clear first before I continue to write further. So please allow me to give you a couple of NOs.

NO. I will NOT drop this fansite. *take note I am putting this entry on the following list of sites* Nu- huh. No. Iie. That's a negatory, good buddy. This break is not a discrete way of walking away and quitting nor will I be putting an adoption sign during or after my break. So being as redundant as it sounds, I will continue making updates, adding more content, and fan-material.

NO. This break is not indefinite. I'll be back on April 26, 2011.

NO. I'm not exhausted from running the site to the point of dumping it. Are you kidding me?! I'm having fun. There's just some things that needs to be taken care of.

You might be wondering why I'm taking a hiatus. There's just so much stuff over here. It's mostly work and university. It's the end of a term again and the FINALS are coming. I'll need time to study on my Math finals *they're brutal to the core*. I will be making preparations for my Business presentation and the finals as well. I am getting pressured to work harder in the office. I may be able to get the position I'm aiming for. And a raise. Wee. I'll need some time to rest. I need some time to assert myself. It's a time to regroup.

These are the following websites that will be affected on my hiatus:

FruitsBlogsket | including the FB Shires and FTP (Furuba Territorial Project)

Blog Hina (CYF Love Hina) | including the Love Hina Project

SchoolRumblog | including the Harima Crossing

MyCircumstances | including the Kare Kano prefecture and corresponding blogs.

The Waltz Dramatic | corresponding sub-pages will be on hiatus.

Chonegai | Team Chobits and Team OT... are still on hiatus, I'm afraid more details below.

Pardon the shameless plug. ':)

As I've said, I'm not dropping any of the above. Okay. I'll give you more reassurance why I would continue:

I treat each of my fansite as a WIP.

The FruitsBlogsket Memorable Quotes is not finished. 16 more episodes to go.

Love Hina Project Gallery is not complete. Still waiting for episodes 18-26 + Special episodes + Love Hina Again.

Love Hina Project has just added Kentaro's Quarters. Kentaro would be really pissed if I abandon ship right now.

I've just added a section of birthday reminder for Blog Hina. Making the Love Hina Project Worldplay a richer experience.

Since there's a new addition to Love Hina Project, you can take a hint that there's gonna be more addition in the future. Fine. Motoko. There.

The FruitsBlogsket chirpy and the LHP weather widget are just too interesting to pass up.

Season One episode recaps are still unavailable at The Waltz Dramatic.

The SchoolRumblog screenshots are... missing?! wth. Where are they? *checks server... facepalm* they're not published yet. Sorry, I'll put them online on SchoolRumblog after the break.

At least two new sections for Harima Crossing are needed to surpass the beta/initial stage. Plus I like the name Harima Crossing -- if you guys get the drift.

It's been two years since I stopped posting in My Kare Kano but I HAVE NO INTENTION of DELETING IT. I'm still getting comments from it btw. And I have so many memories too precious to make me delete it. Ahh. the 56K dial-up days.

Kare Kano prefecture needs an update to its design.

Chonegai *checks last entry* uhm... yeah. Still No. *facepalm. THAT OLD?! REALLY?!* Go Team Chobits and Team OT. Anyway, the content is still there. And I'm not giving it up for adoption. Like MyCircumstances, a lot of things happened, a lot of adjustments have taken place, during the life of Chonegai.

I treat each of my fansite as a WIP. Besides, they're all part blog.

And my sink has a leak, the laundry needs to be done, Jog at the warm days of spring, don't forget the milk and your dentist appointment.

Still not convinced? After brainstorming, the PMI method, and consulting with my portfolio I am interested in launching not one but two new fansites before the end of summer 2011. Type in 'ef fansite' in Google and you'll find Euphoric Field. Check the dates and you'll see how old is the latest entry. THIS one, I was supposed to delete. But it's official I will follow it through. Therefore, I'm announcing that I'll be launching an ~ef fansite -- The Tale of Memories first. I hope you guys like the ~ef anime series too.

What about the second one? Hmm... I've already picked the anime title and the name for the site. In fact, I've already reserved a working HTTP address hosted by Blogspot. But I'm still undecided which host I shall pick. Since Blogspot is awesome *Thank you Blogspot*, I might be using Blogspot. Lemme give you a hint. It has something to do with Kimi----.

So expect the usual content: like character biographies, screenshots, memorable quotes, roleplay and MORE. And I'll stop here.

Oh yeah. And another NO. I am not chewing more than I can bite. This isn't something that's too much to handle. Really. And you might be thinking that I have so much time in my hand. I LOL. If you are, then please start reading at the top again. I'm trying to explore my potential. Plus, HTML, Programming and writing are good on my resume. *wink wink*

Think of it as an act of putting in motion on the matter that you like to do. Like playing videogames and going further. Drawing and having them published online. Playing the guitar and writing your own chords and lyrics. Writing reports and writing extra for the people or the things you love. Why would you restrain yourself from expressing your passion?

I'll be dropping by and will still reply to your feedbacks. Thank you for your continued patronage, for the hits, for your visits, for your comments, for telling your friends, and for your feedback. Thank you for the motivation and thanks for your patience. I WILL SEE YOU in April.

the 8.9 magnitude earthquake in Japan

2011-03-12T01:42:00.003-06:00

A 8.9 magnitude Earthquake has devastated Japan. It's the worst Earthquake in the Japanese history. I'm praying that my relatives and friends there are okay. I haven't heard any news from them yet, nor received any email. I'm praying for their safety in Tokyo. Let's not forget that just a few weeks ago, a 6.3 magnitude Earthquake shook Christchurch, New Zealand. The recent series of disasters make me think about what's happening around the world. What do you think?

bloggy: easy and liking it

2011-02-23T15:41:00.001-06:00

Got my drivers license renewed today. I can finally enjoy the rest of my reading week without a care. It's been pretty easy for the past two days and I love it. I had an easy shift *which is very rare* yesterday and it's also an easy Wednesday. If it weren't for the sour weather, I could've stayed outside for a while or linger around downtown. Before leaving home, the skies were blue even though it was snowing. And it wasn't really chilly. I changed my mind and set homeward bound when the skies turned suddenly turned dark with flurries pouring down like crazy.

It's a good thing I didn't have to work today. It would suck having to work under this sour weather condition. I remember what my professor said one time in class. Gloomy weather in winter makes people depressed. I forgot the name of the town where a number of people committed suicide because they've been having a very bad weather (always snowing, skies were grey, very cold temperatures) for months. It was a long time ago. I'm trying to search the internet to find out an accurate information about this incident.

I just bought the Sims 3 Outdoor living. I'm a huge Sims fan. From Sims to Sims 2 to Sims 3. But I'm not really a huge Sims 3 fan. For me, the Sims 2 is the best.

There's a lot of games I'm looking forward to playing this year. There's Dragon Age 2 coming up shortly, Battlefield 3 this fall, The Sims Medieval *looks interesting*, Silent Hill Downpour *coming this fall as well*. Of course my list continues, but these are the three games on the top. Also looking forward to the Nintendo 3DS and the NGP *set to release at the end of 2011* -- it's not even the end of the 2010-2011 winter yet, and I'm already looking forward to this year's Fall.

bloggy: I miss my bed and my blanket ftw!

2011-01-20T00:25:00.007-06:00

I miss the holidays. What a dumb thing to say, isn't it? But it's true. It's the 19th of January and I'm eager for this year's Christmas -- I want Christmas back. There was so much love and giving this past Christmas. I mean, so many parties, eating and free stuff. So yeah. Sue me. Argh. I'm Christmas crashing hard.

We all get the feeling where it bums us out that everything's going to be back to normal. Back to school. Back to work. It's just ugh. Or I wish it was Christmas everyday. I wish everyday is my favorite time of the year. Maybe I'm really getting tired. And I need a PROPER vacation.

Have I lost my zest and patience? At work, I'm eager to go home. At school, all I can think of is going home. That's right, all I can think of is home. Why? Heavens. I'm not homesick, am I? Everytime in school and everytime at work, I feel uneasy and uncomfortable. I haven't felt this way before. Or have I? But I can't remember. I wonder how it came to this. I've been able to get by. Anyway, I've to do something about this before it gets worse.

I wonder where you can buy Animal Crossing toys in Winnipeg-- where'd that come from? nevermind... My mind's babbling again.

bloggy: start the thursday, people!

2011-01-06T20:23:00.001-06:00

First day of school in the year 2011 wrapped up pretty good. I never get it why time goes by so slow when it's the first day of school. Maybe it's because I'm eager to go home ever since my first step out of the house.

I must say, I don't like my first two subjects. I'm taking Discrete Math *proofs* and Stats. And seriously, it's a laugh that there's so much WRITING? Both are MATH subjects! By the time I get to my 3rd subject, Intro to Business I, I couldn't recognize my hand anymore. Thinking that we might be doing presentations in Intro to Business I, I don't know if I can stay fresh from so much writing. But I think it's all good I guess. I'll just have to -- HOW COME THERE'S SO MUCH WRITING ON THESE MATH COURSES?! -- *clears throat* Sorry. I had to let that out. I'm good now.

I'm liking the Intro to Business I. I think the instructor is very good. This is looking pretty well because I'm still undecided whether to pursue Business courses in the future. But I think I will pursue them in the future if I do well in this subject. Speaking of pursuing business subjects in the future... I forgot I have no more money to buy books! But they're so expensive! But but-- STUDYING WITHOUT BOOKS IS LIKE EATING JUST THE N IN MACNCHEESE! Damn books. Ruined my education.

Nerdiness... tingling... gotta fight it-- I know! I shall post all of my schedule for my assignment, article reviews, term tests, and final exams online! -- Who said that?!

Oh yes, I just remembered, if you're enrolling in the University of Winnipeg, make sure to MEMORIZE *REMEMBER at least* the due dates or the TERM TEST dates on your course outline! If there's one tip that you need to remember, always read the course outline!

... and always write with a No.2 pencil.

happy new 2011!

2011-01-01T00:00:00.002-06:00

Happy new year to everyone! 2011 is going to be a great year. I just know it will. First thing's first, I'd like to thank everyone for the hits and visits, you guys are the best and this site will be all for nothing if it weren't for all of you! You've rocked my 2010 and please look after me this 2011 as well.

The 5th year of FruitsBlogsket is October 2011, so I plan to do something fancy. Along wiht my agenda is maintaining the roleplay and worldplay sites will follow.

2010 has been an emotional rollercoaster for me, a lot of ups and downs. But I feel like I've learned a lot of things and accepted a lot of facts in life. I can't make a better past, but I can only make my future better with the present I received. God, thank you for everything.

Let's make the year great. Let's start and let's not wait.

as a sidenote: 2011 is my year! It's me, Momiji's and Kyo's year. Why Kyo? Well, cause the rabbit replaced the cat in the Chinese Zodiac *thanks to the rat* -- BUT visa versa in the Vietnamese Zodiac. In short, 2011 is going to be a fun year!

bloggy: holiday mode

2010-11-28T01:33:00.002-06:00

November's almost wrapped up and it's almost time to unwrap December. Plus the presents. Winter arrived early this year. I don't like snow very much, but it's here to stay for five months. Or seven even. Anyway, I don't care. I've just finished 2 of 3 university requirements. Term's almost over. I'm going into holiday mode!

despite the snow, I decided to try the swings.
When I said I'm going into holiday mode, that doesn't mean I'll be busy this holiday. It means that I've more time for myself. Yey. I've been really busy. Meeting the requirements that were due the past week was a miracle in progress; I gotta say. Wednesday: Finished a Research Paper, Created a Research Presentation, Finished a speech and studied for my Statistics term test. I slept for 3 hours and I had to present all the research stuff next day and I finished the term test. When I came home, I just slept like I was I had a hangover. Friday, I was hibernating.

should've brought my gloves. but since I'm already a cool kid, I thought nvm.

one of the better days this winter
It's time to buy presents. I got myself a guitar from my Dad. I didn't know that HE WAS EAGER to buy me presents. I told him I wanted a guitar yesterday, and then I came home and saw this guitar next to my computer. What a speedy response. I should've said a 3D flat screen instead.

Speaking of dad giving me my presents, it's my Mom's birthday today!

bloggy: free writing in the office

2010-11-08T19:05:00.001-06:00

I'm at work. I'm actually writing at work. Don't tell my boss.

I don't know why I'm so tired. Have you ever felt exhausted after waking up a good eight hours of sleep? This is how I feel every Monday - sluggish. But today feels so different. Oh crap. I just remembered. I have a case document due soon. Well it sucks, because I can't do anything when I go home, I just want to sleep and I just wrote a 19 page formal report for two days. Maybe it's the reason why I'm looking to sleep at work.

Three subjects. That's all I'm taking this term. But I feel like I'm taking seven. So this is how university life feels like when you have a full time job. Next term would be relatively lighter: I'll be taking 3 subjects, 3 day-offs and 3 shifts every week. If it weren't for my programming lab, I'd have one more day off this term.

Sleepy. I really want to sleep in the office. Aww... but I can't! I didn't bring my pajama! I think I'm just burning out, that's why I feel tired. Naw, it's just that 19 page report. And I think my professor only expects a four page report. Good times.

Hey, I just turned 21! And I still play videogames. I can't help it, I grew from the 90s which was the time when videogames were booming. The games coming out this fall look pretty sick and unforgiving! I mean, they're so expensive, I'll have to work overtime to afford them.

And speaking of overtime. My parents with my sister are coming to the Philippines next year. I'm homesick and then they're going to leave me. Oh joy.

I gotta go! I gotta sign out from Facebook. my boss is coming.

bloggy: a breathing room

2010-11-03T00:43:00.004-05:00

Finally, day off! There was so much work happening recently. Even my birthday wasn't spared. It's just now that I've been given a breathing room for a lot of paperwork. I never knew three subjects would be so much to handle. Well, I am working full time. So yeah. Just a few more weeks and then I'm done with this term. Meanwhile allow me to enjoy my day off!

bloggy: how was my Tuesday?

2010-10-06T23:34:00.006-05:00

How was my Tuesday, you ask? Extreme. I had so much work *work for brains and work for money* that took me to the extreme. I woke up at 8am and I slept at 4am, Wednesday. Tuesday was brutal, it pushed my adrenaline even on the bed; I couldn't sleep because my heart was pumping like crazy.

Tuesday. First business is to remove the Critique that I finished. I barely finished it because I also stayed up until Tuesday 1am. Prior to Tuesday, I worked and came home around 10:30PM from work. Anyway, I finished the Critique but there's also a bigger business, my programming midterm. It's weird because it's only the third week and we're already having the midterm. So I studied my notes on the bus and before first period. It was worth it, I guess. Then on my first period, Business Communications, I handed in my Critique. There were some people who haven't submitted theirs. I forgot; there is no penalty for late submissions. So I was thinking to myself, maybe I shouldn't have done that.

Second period, Midterm. It was time to make it happen. It was very hard. There were people who gave up in the middle and gave an empty or half-empty booklet. People started to leave. The pressure was building so bad, I went blank.

Third period was Statistics. But it was more like literature. Because the instructor preferred to write than to verbally explain things. And after all of those things were done, I walked around the campus doing errands to fix some things. I didn't have time to lie down on the lounge so I went straight to work.

The shift at work was straightforward. But the time passed by so slow. It was official. I was tired. When I left the office, time was running out at the bus stop. I had to run and use what's left in me and I was dying to get home. I almost missed the bus but when I made it, my smile was from ear to ear. I was probably getting stared at as I was laughing at myself. I don't blame them, I was getting delirious.

I checked my email with droopy eyes. I thought I'd surf the web first before I would sleep. Meanwhile, my mom was giving me some hints that she wanted help on her homework. It was still Tuesday, 11pm. Then after turning my head around, the next thing I knew I was typing a full report about chapters 1 and 2 on her book. Yep. I had to read the two chapters and write a report about them. I stayed up until 4am finishing this report. I feel like crashing my head on the keyboard with my face pressing the letter Z. It was an extreme writing. I rushed like there was no tomorrow. And I finished it. At 5am and the sky was turning blue, my mom then told me that she wanted her journal printed as well. So I slept around 5:30am Wednesday?

I enjoyed my day off! I enjoyed by sleeping all day. I wanted to do a lot of stuff this Wednesday. But there was no slot for my leisure time. After frolicking around in the mall, I came home and hit my programming assignment ASAP. OH CRAP! Speaking of assignment I still have to do my Stat homework!

bloggy: I'M VRY BC

2010-09-30T01:19:00.006-05:00

While browsing my facebook, I've come to realize that my friends have figured out what they want to be. As for me, I'm not sure yet. I'm still in the process of figuring out what I want to be. I'm opening my options. But I'm very happy that I have a general idea what I want to do.

The programming, the papers and the numbers are stacking up. I am writing a critique and formal report. I'm going to have my programming midterm next Tuesday. And we've gone up to four long chapters in Statistics without an exam; which will ball up into a huge exam. The pressure is building, I'll say. How big is the pressure? Let's say, I read my notes in the bus, at work, during breaks at work, and when I sleep.

On another note, I've been promoted at work. I'm going to help trainees and be an advisor. And I heard that they're going to raise the pay rate this October. I'm thrilled.

There is a lot going on around me. I've been looking for this much activity. I complain a bit, but it's okay overall. This is the challenge of hope. I have to overcome this hurdle because I believe I'm on my path who I want to be. And I'm excited. Speaking of excited, I'm excited to come home to the Philippines. But I don't have money for plane ticket nor a date to leave yet.

Studying in University of Winnipeg made me realize the very stiff competition. Still, I'll just do what I can do. I need to do my best. My real aim is a scholarship grant. But the stiff competition makes it so hard. I keep praying. I try. I just hope I can land a scholarship grant because I really want to study and graduate fast.

I don't have anything much to talk about with my side projects. I plan to work on my portfolio website. I don't know when I'll start, but it's a must. Tomorrow's October already? Oh wow. If I recall... FruitsBlogsket's and Blog Hina's 5th birthday is just around the corner!

bloggy: dadadaaan! Back to school!

2010-09-06T23:39:00.004-05:00

September's here and I'm going back to school. Give me a moment to properly thank God for the long vacation.

Ah yes, the long awaited back-to-university life is here. I'm going back to sleep early and it's also time for me to wake up early. I usually wake up around 3pm when I work and 6pm when I have the day off *only to wake up that the day's already over*. It's been almost a year since I stopped going to school but it's gonna take effort to reset myself. I don't know if it'll take a day only. The last time I made it a routine to wake up early, I experienced withdrawal symptoms; that was when before I entered grade 12.

Summer's almost over and I bet you've had a more interesting summer than I did. So what did I do this summer? I haven't gone camping yet, that's one; but my friends told me we're gonna do it at the end or in the middle of September. which means we're gonna camp when it's cold.

We went paintballing this past Friday. We were involved in a somewhat car accident on our way but that didn't stop us from going, it's for my friend's birthday. Paintball is fun. We played four games of team deathmatch and we were tied 2-2. Then for closing, we played Free-for-all and I won. Yeah. I guess all those games in CS, CoD, HLDM, Quake, Unreal Tournament, L4D, ... etcetera paid off. Even though I played bots most of the time.

Ah but my thought of going back to school spoils my mood. To tell you the truth, I'm a bit nervous going back because I don't know anyone in University of Winnipeg. I mean, I have friends who are there but they're not really my close friends or they're not freshmen. So I'll have to sort things out first in orientation and memorize the campus. And to be frank, I'm a little shy. No, it's not a lie. *read frank* oh man, this is loser talk. I'm sure I won't be entirely alone.

So here I go, as I tread into the depths of life. I find myself under pressure. It's going to be an interesting school year. I bet. I'm taking programming. But I'm not really sure about it. I don't want to worry. I've experienced this before. As soon as I get the hang of things, each piece will fall into place.

bloggy: don't worry

2010-08-26T04:46:00.007-05:00

I'm sorry for my absence. I'm in a frenzied mess right now. And August isn't just the month for me. My childhood best friend passed away and my pet dog passed away as well. It wasn't easy. Anyway, I'm not here to make you guys depressed. I've been such a person for a while now. I better move on. I'm fine by the way. Despite my loss, I'll be okay.

Yes, August is almost over and summer as well. School is two weeks away. It'll be fun. Haha... ahhh... don't try to be funny. My class starts at Sept. 8 but mine starts on the 10th. I'll be in the University of Winnipeg. It's close to home and close to work. That is, if I'll still work in my usual workplace. I plan to work part-time in campus.

So what have I been doing these past couple of weeks? Nothing much. Writing stories. Drawing. Playing videogames. Reading. And playing some more. I plan to go paint-balling and probably do an emergency camping with some friends next week. I'm also building a website based on nostalgia. I feel that my brain is running out of hard disk space and so I need to write it down before I forget. I lawl when I read some of my entries written back in the good ol' days. I intend to trip my memory into a nostalgic overdrive.

By the way, it's getting colder. Bah! Kimikimkimster is not amused.

bloggy: I'm sore

2010-08-16T04:18:00.005-05:00

I can't do anything with this numbness in my head. I've scratched this cliche too much that I don't recognize the drama is all about. This is the simple sadness that I feel. The feeling where people think too much how they'd describe, the color that blurs the day and the night, the wall that blocks your path to your norm, when will I get over with it? Just as love makes a person crazy, depression will make a person crazy as well. I wonder how pain would cease pain.

This is the reality of life. It's not always milk and honey, I fear. I don't even know why I'm tired. When I went to work, I was tired already. I've had 10 hours of sleep. I'm not sure what's happening in my life. My thoughts have dried. I find no meaning in rest. Sleep is just a distraction. Each week feels the same. I feel like I'm not making progress in life. And I feel like I'm not getting any satisfaction. The past weeks have just been terrible for me. If today's problem isn't fixed, that means doubled trouble tomorrow.

I'm not even interested to write. It's like my enthusiasm shut down. I'm suffering from depression with a hint of boredom including burnout accompanied by confusion altogether.

tell them I love you

2010-07-29T16:49:00.003-05:00

I was on my way back to my room when my mom called me. After hearing what she had said, I fell on the floor with the whole world in black and white.

I am depressed to write, but I think the depression will consume me if I do nothing. I'm afraid I won't be able to smile for a couple of days. I honestly found it hard to smile. And I only know one pose when someone takes a picture of me; that is to smile.

My best friend passed away. I can't emphasize how close we are. She's almost my older sister and I treat her like family. She has been with me ever since I can remember. She was my best friend. From elementary, high school, to university. And when I come home from the university campus, not too often I see her, I realized how I was better having her in my life.

I picked myself up on the floor and told my mom I'd be okay. But then I found myself weary. The radio played one song in loop. All flashbacks imploded. My heart slowed down as tears finally made their way out. I couldn't sleep and I had work the next day. 3am I was still crying and I hugged my pillow for comfort. Everyone was asleep. They didn't hear me crying. I didn't intend to show anyone. However, I think they knew.

Three years after I left. It was a surprise for me. Next year I was planning to see her, bring her gifts and probably travel or have a feast at home; I guess, when I come home, I'll go see her and offer flowers.

I loved her dearly like an older sister. And things happened too fast. Does she know that I loved her? I know that I'll never meet such a person once more.

Don't take the lives who are dear to you for granted. Let your feelings be heard before it's too late. If you're reading this, just let them know; tell them I love you.

bloggy: looking ahead

2010-07-22T03:47:00.003-05:00

I always find it fun to pull up a chair, sit down while I think of the future. It's a way of reflection too. In this world where it's a race to be noticed, it's essential to take time and think. It's a way of peace and retreat.

I'm not sure of who I am. But I've got plans. Yes, I do. To be honest, I can see my friends discover themselves who they are. They've finished their studies and they're now working full-time. I feel happy for them that they've made it. I can only sigh aside as I work part-time to study and go back to university. Yeah, last time I know we were classmates. Now, we're worlds apart. I'll get there to my destination too. I've got to look forward.

On another topic, Onemanga.com is going bye bye -- which isn't something that I'm not looking forward to. I love Onemanga.com, it's a shame that I wasn't able to become a part of the community ever since I started reading at their website. Another Sims 3 expansion called Sims 3 Late Night is coming this fall. It's a reason why I need to buy a new computer because I've an old one. I'm a mad Simmer-- been in love with the Sims since... uh... The Sims. And another reason to buy a new PC is Starcraft 2 is nearly out this July 27. Just to give you an idea how psyched I am with the official release of Starcraft 2 -- I screamed like a girl when I saw the first trailer back in 2008. I guess I won't have enough for presents this Christmas.

Sigh. I'm still depressed about Onemanga.com shutting down.

bloggy : forked on the road

2010-07-02T23:22:00.002-05:00

I want to read Catcher in the Rye once again. I just want to make sure I don't feel like Holden Caulfield felt. In Maslow's hierarchy of needs, I remember my teacher telling me that there are people who don't obtain self-actualization. I guess what I'm trying to say is: I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO! or maybe bored. Don't worry about me. I'll figure out something. That's why I'm waiting for the coming fall. I'll be a university student once more. I just want to study for the mean time. I meant study as my primary routine. Erm... I meant having fun and studying should be tied at the top. Earning money should be my third priority. What's second? Sleep.

bloggy : what am I missing?

2010-06-25T23:30:00.003-05:00

I'm going to have a very long weekend next week. They just canceled my shifts for the whole week. It's prior to the Canada day. It's a rare impromptu vacation. I've to carefully plan how to spend it. It might not happen again. I'm so happy! Oh $#!* this is going to hurt my paycheck. I guess I won't be able to buy Starcraft 2 this July.

You know, I've been thinking. Do I know what I want to do in life? That's right, roll your eyes. I think I know what I want to do, but is it fine to have a bit of doubt?

And you know what? I'm having this big mental block and it's not even funny anymore. I've told myself that I better write a story with at least 5 chapters. Or a story that makes sense.

It's not a total loss though. I managed to write a song.

So yeah, June's almost over. I was pushing my friends that we go camping this summer. I'm not really sure if it's even possible with their schedule. But it'll be truly epic if we did go camping. But I hope we won't starve. I've forgotten everything what I've learned back when I was a boy scout. Don't laugh.

bloggy: work it up there

2010-06-07T02:46:00.001-05:00

I really can't write anything interesting these days. It's a sign that I should be going out more often. Hey, why not? It's summer! The sad thing is, I've no time for some sunshine.

Work is getting to be a drag. These past four weeks have been unfavorable for me. I find myself in a bit of a struggle at work. It's like I'm getting worse at it. And I don't know why I can't be specific on writing my problem; I'm probably embarrassed to tell. To put it simply, things are no longer how they used to be. My thought is that I should be getting used to my job and improving. But after seeing the results, they show otherwise.

That's why I think that this is a test for me. It has only been a year since I started working there. I should expect more things to happen. I can only pray to God and ask for His guidance. I do believe I should continue.

Summer is almost here. I asked my friend if they wanted to go camping. And no adult supervision-- just us twenteens-- you know, people who are 20 and over. I'm not sure where we're going yet. To be honest, I'm not sure if we're going camping. But I definitely want to go.

On a sidenote: Tweens are youngins' in their 10, 11, ans 12s.

And after summer, in comes fall. I've been admitted into the University of Winnipeg. I've also received a special entrance scholarship money. Wooh! Ric Flair style. Let's just say it's enough to pay for my first year subjects. And that's a big help. You know, I prayed for that too-- the admission and the scholarship.

Father's day is around the corner. I bought my dad a grill last year... so he's all good. I wonder what I'll get for mom this Father's day.

Maybe I can get dad a Notebook. Netbooks are really small-- I also think he'll have a hard time typing on-- and their processors aren't that fast. Moreover, his old computer's really busted. So a Notebook would be a good choice. That way, he can use something to write on when he goes to work. Fine, I'll throw in a pen as well.

bloggy: urgh. it's what I hate of long weekends.

2010-05-25T04:21:00.002-05:00

Do you know what I hate about long weekends? I hate it when the long weekend is over; plain and simple. Oh well, back to reality.

bloggy: that's a nosebleeder!

2010-04-29T17:50:00.001-05:00

If you had a nosebleed at work, what would you do? Would you: panic? keep your cool? shove a tissue in the nose? Ask for a break? Tell your boss? leave early? As for me, I did none of the above.

I was on the phone when I found out my nose was bleeding. I couldn't do anything else, but to stay on the phone. I couldn't tell the client that I was having a nosebleed, I mean... why would I? But it would be funny if I say 'I'm sorry, please excuse me for a moment as I'm having a nosebleed.' Hilarious. I put my head up and shoved my handkerchief on my nose. Then my voice started to sound funny because my nose was jammed. So I was stuck in the phone while making myself feel better. Good thing it stopped bleeding. But I wonder why my nose started bleeding again. Is it the weather? Is it stress? I wasn't really tired back then and it's spring. Usually, I get nosebleeds during winter.

Anyway, when I checked myself on the washroom, I didn't see anything wrong with my nose or my face. It looked normal. Still ugly.

Nosebleeds huh? I also have another story. I had a case of a nosebleed where I felt a chill while using the computer. I was typing on the keyboard and I sneezed. I grabbed my hanky and blew my nose. Then I put it aside. After a few minutes, my nose became runny, but I was so into typing the paragraph I was working on *cough* *cough* *nerd* *cough* and so I ignored my runny nose-- which is eww. I know, right? But it gets better... or worse... whichever. Anyway, when I finished typing, I reached for my hanky again and wiped my nose from my cold. On the lower part of my vision, I caught a glimpse of red on the cloth. When I looked down, my white keyboard turned red with a slobber of blood all over. I didn't know blood was already dripping while I was casually typing. Moreover, the snot that should've been on my handkerchief was, in fact, blood too.

Fun times.

I wasn't typing porn btw.

This past Tuesday was a dozy at work. It was all too tiring after work and I'm glad it's over. I'm enjoying my three day vacation.

bloggy: some random thoughts before I got sleep

2010-04-14T04:38:00.002-05:00

My grandma's coming to back to the Philippines this Saturday. My relative will join her as they will spend a month's vacation there. Then my cousin will go there by himself and join them there for a month as well. So there's lots of people leaving for vacation. They'll be back around May. It'll be a quiet April for some of us. But it's going to be a busy month for me. Sigh. I don't really know where to start ranting why I'm going to be busy these coming days. I'm running, errands, doing work and preparing myself for university-- which means more work. It's not funny anymore and it's tiring to say that I'm busy. It's pissing me off. I can't wait to do nothing.

Bah! Moving on. There's really not much to talk about other than busy-ness. I'm thinking of living in my own apartment. Haha. But not with my current salary. I can't afford it. That's why this summer, I'm gonna apply for a double job-- if time grants it. I have a plan to work in campus part- time. That'll save me travel time, plus I could get to know a lot of people in campus. Although there's one thing that I've discovered when you're working: if you make friends, you make enemies as well. They say that business is nothing personal; I doubt the idea. I think it's just some excuse to fool someone and make them feel better.

It's getting nice outside. Finally, I can get out... if I have time.

news : Hits from March

2010-04-01T05:30:00.000-05:00

and in other news...

total hits received for the month of March courtesy of statcounter.com: Blog Hina - 1503 | FruitsBlogsket - 8008 | SchoolRumblog - 127 | The Waltz Dramatic - 1752 | My Circumstances - 40 | Chonegai - 22

= received more hits compared to the previous month
= received fewer hits compared to the previous month

My comment on FruitsBlogsket:
I seriously thought March has been a bad month for FruitsBlogsket; I'm surprised that it managed to receive 8000+ hits despite the slow updates. Thank you very much for the visits and returning visits.

My comment on Blog Hina:
Thanks a bunch for the support and the hits, I am really happy with the hits the site received. It is really on a phase where the updates are slow. Nevertheless, I can say that Blog Hina looked good in March. There will be more Love Hina screenshots. It certainly can become better this April.

My comment on SchoolRumblog:
I can only blame myself for not putting much attention onto SchoolRumblog. The School Rumble series *manga and anime* is finished. But the way Jin-sensei completed the series is left open ended. Which means the series has a big potential for role-players and fanfic writers. And which also means that I need to write stories as much as Harima Crossing is concerned. This is gold! Thank you for the hits! Harima ftw!

My comment on The Waltz Dramatic:
The Waltz Dramatic *my fansite for Honey and Clover* looked stable during March as well. Not much to mention since I put the roleplay section on hiatus. Thank you for visiting The Waltz Dramatic, thank you for your support and your comments!

My comment on My Circumstances:
It has become hard to make updates on this fansite, *a fansite for His and Her Circumstances* due to the fact that and I am not really sure of the direction of mycircumstances (pun not intended). The manga is complete. And before I could continue, I need to know more of the manga (especially some chapters before the ending), so that further content can be added. This fansite is put on hold. But, nevertheless, thank you for all the people who has supported it ever since it was published in 2005.

My comment on Chonegai:
From my weird idea of merging Onegai Twins and Chobits -- thus allowing me to publish Chonegai due to my boredom of 2005 university sembreak. I had chickenpox that time, so I couldn't party outside with my friends. I was really sour because I had the chickenpox at the START of my sembreak. And I was only able to go out after a month -- the end of my sembreak. So yeah. Anyway, I'm not sure of the website's direction. This site is also put on hold. Thank you for the visits, purposely or by accident.

Ah, the memories of 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009.

btw, April 2010 is here! 8 more months 'til Christmas! *snickers*

bloggy : wharrgarbl!

2010-03-18T03:41:00.006-05:00

Spring is here! Time to celebrate! But I had a different opinion this past Tuesday. On my way to work, when the bus stopped before the red light, I saw a man crying with his arms on the wall. He was wiping his face constantly beside the building and noticed that he really looked desperate. I thought what was wrong, but the people on the street were avoiding him. He didn't look suspicious. It's as if he lost his job or something, but no one dared approach him. I don't blame other people, it's just that why hasn't no one approached him?

I was running late going to work. I was also running late catching the bus home. At the bus stop, I also found this lady crying. I overheard that she lost her purse in one of the buses. The purse had something valuable inside is my guess, but fortunately, there was someone that helped her call the transit operators by cellphone. In the end, she found what she was looking for. I also hoped that someone might have helped the man from before.

At home, I didn't waste anymore time but to catch up with my missed relaxation. Only I find myself reformatting my laptop. I couldn't give myself a little slack yet. It took me the whole day to make it running again. I didn't sleep and I lost my valuables inside, pics, Photoshop brushes, fonts, drafts, sketches, games, you name it. It's an Acer.

Good thing is, it's back. But I'm tired and pissed of fixing it or getting it fixed. Backup your files, ladies and gents. It'll save you a lot of pain in the end. When can I really some off time? I mean, spring's here!

bloggy : sadness at work

2010-03-13T23:51:00.000-06:00

There's sadness at work. I didn't know that they were terminating people. I just learned this Saturday that they've given notifications to terminate 41 people this past Thursday. Among them are my friends. I can only see them two weeks from now. I'm not one of the people leaving the company. And I thank God for that. But realizing that they're leaving means something to me. At the very least, things will become different.

As far as I know, I don't want them to leave, but due to some issues, the center apparently has no choice but to drop these people. 41. That's a lot. I can only blow out my sigh of sadness and I want to wish them God speed for their future endeavors.

I am not left unaffected. This affects how I am going to perform from here on. I mean, hearing that they're terminating people (terminating is different from laying off), I have to improve my performance at all cost. And the responsibilities being handed to me are getting tough. Still, I shouldn't give in to the pressure. I mean, they're still giving me these responsibilities; which means they're entrusting them to me. And when people entrust, they have confidence in you.

Right now, I have this thought in my mind bugging me. I can't tell you what exactly. Maybe I'll need to see what happens later this week.

bloggy : craving for some [insert craving here]

2010-02-04T00:33:00.008-06:00

Surprise surprise! They still have Chippy at the nearby Giant Tiger. Man, when I found these babies, I suddenly wanted to look for Mr. Chips or V-Cut. Then I thought that a bottle of Royal Tru Orange or even Pop Cola would be great. Then it hit me that if I'm gonna eat chips, it wouldn't be enough. I might as well go all out and go to Chowking and their Lauriat plus a side of Wonton. But my craving didn't stop there as I felt missing Jollibee's Chickenjoy. Yes, Chickenjoy, the fries... the works... however, I teared up a bit as I realized I haven't tried the Jollibee Champ in my whole life. My eyes grew and there was emptiness inside, but at least I've had the Jolly Hotdog before, wee!-- for better or for worse. Speaking of Jolly Hotdog, the KFCs here don't serve rice and so I began to crave of tokneneng; even if the thought is a million miles unrelated. With my tokneneng craving looming pinching me, I licked my lips as my memories reel in while eating barbeque on the sidewalk. Taho in the morning. Pancit and Sago for lunch. And then Bibingka in the evening. Oh, I thought that a Goldilucks triple choco cake wouldn't be so bad. I was seeing things in the store as Mister Donut danced at the background. Mister Donut. Dancing. Wait! Don't go! Come back!! NOOO! Another tear trailed on my cheek and I felt lonesome. But something pat my back. When I turned around, it was Donut King! I hugged Donut King... and poof! It turned into isaw. I wonder why. I looked around for Donut King and saw Max's Fried Chicken having a chat with Greenwich. But before I could say to them they ran away. I sobbed. Why are you running away from me?! I MISS YOU EVERYONE! *dirty ice cream included*

Dad: "Jed? JED!! HOY!" I snapped out of my dream. "Napano ka?"

Me: "...pa, kelan bakasyon natin?" *nudge nudge* *wink wink*

Dad: Heh!! Mahal plane ticket!!

Me:

To tell you the truth, there's heaps of Filipino food here in Canada. *like Balot* But you can't find every Filipino food here.

Enough about my food cravings.

What are my plans for 2010? Well, one thing's for sure: go back to University. I miss my university life: staying up late to study pages 200-280 of my Chemistry book, writing 25 pages of report that's due the next day, studying five long exams scheduled on the same day, sweating hard in front of a very large class for an oral report, sleeping for four hours because of the 7am first period, having a hard time focusing with boring professors, or struggle with terror teachers, streaking in campus because it's requirement for an organization... good times. good times.

What else am I scheming this year? I'm also looking to buy an all-in-one computer + a electronic drawing pad. It's A MUST! I'm tired of scanning my drawings.

... and a DSLR Cam... which would cost as much as my tuition fee.

I might sell this sweater too.
If things get too dicey, I might look for another job.

Oh yeah. And send money back to my relatives in the Philippines. *embarassed laugh*

I found out that money is a social being. If you have a bunch of bills all tight and bunched together with other bills, they'll have fun just by staying with each other -- so they won't leave your wallet very soon. But if there's just one bill left in your pocket, it'll feel lonely and move out to its friends in the cash register -- or to someone else's wallet.

bloggy : university admission with drumsticks

2010-01-25T00:56:00.000-06:00

The university application was such a drag. They told me to register online and said that they'd do all the work; I just had to pay for the processing fee and relax. But then it was too good to be true-- almost like a marketing scheme. In the end, I had to do all the errands. I should've seen it coming. Still, I remember that they said they were going to make the calls to my high school, have my transcript faxed from them, it's just that they said they were going to do all the work. But no.

Anyway, after all was finished, I'm just waiting to get my accepted. Yes. I haven't been accepted yet. But that shouldn't a problem since my grades aren't a problem. I'm just a bit concerned that I might be missing something. Although, I've given them the needed documents, including my high school and post-secondary transcripts from the Philippines. I am really counting on going to university this fall and be eligible for any scholarship. Money is tight. To be honest, the tuition fee is one of my major problems. And I don't want to apply for a student loan. Whatever.

I'm eyeing to get into University of Winnipeg.

How about other stuff about me that's going on? Well, there isn't much to tell... for now. Work's light and it's snowing outside. So... I wouldn't be spending time outside so much. Oh, I have a new pair of drumsticks. I haven't used them yet, since I can still use my old ones. And since these new drumsticks are still in perfect shape, I don't sense the urgency to use them yet.

The drumsticks were a gift from my fellow people in our church. I didn't see it coming. And it was to my delight since I was planning to buy a new pair. Thanks.

I started playing the drums since I was 8 or 9 and I could barely reach the bass pedal because I was really little... no problems with the clapper since all I did back then was just step on it. But until now, I don't have a drumset at home. Then again, I have an acoustic box set or a cajon. This 2010, it might be my bold move to buy an electronic drumset. I prefer the old fashioned drumset, however, there's no place to put them at home. Let's just see what this year would unravel.

welcome 2010

2010-01-01T00:01:00.000-06:00

Here's to the new year! Let's have new resolutions, new missions, new hopes and dreams, new love, new losses and new wins. Let's have new stories, new poems, new battles, new everything. It's a new year, let's have a peaceful start, let's forget old grudges, vacuum the dirt from the past, let's start it right, make it a better year, make it great all around. Let's toast to this brand new year. Let's make this new year great. The start is now so let's not wait.

bloggy : getting the H1N1 vaccine

2009-12-19T01:30:00.002-06:00

I just had my H1N1 vaccine this past Wednesday. At first, my dad surprised me that we're going to get the shot in such a short notice, I cringed and scurried away from him -- was supposed to buy presents. It's not that I'm scared of needles. It's because I have plans for the day. But no. Resistance is futile. I must face the needle.

I'm used to needles. I've had them lots since I was little. And I've had them especially when I had Hepatitis A. My arm was scarred and it looked gross. The H1N1 shouldn't be any different. And they also said that the needles was little. In fact, when they shot me, I didn't feel it. When the nurse said the needle retracted, I was thinking that it got stuck on my arm. Idiot. I also asked my little sister, who was watching me, if the needle entered my arm. She said that it was inserted properly, but I still didn't feel any pain. Gasp! I've become numb to pain. Bleah, emo talk.

Then, I couldn't move my left arm for a day. I had a little headache in the middle of the night, but that was probably because of the cold temperature in my room. No other side effects; it was all good. My sister-in-law got a little fever. But overall, there weren't any serious side-effects on our part. New vaccines make me nervous.

Well, I guess we're all vaccinated against the H1N1 scare. Oh, except for my brother. He went to the mall far away just before my dad arrived. He ran away.

Christmas is around the corner. I can't wait for it. I just need my Saturday to be finished. Then off I go to buy presents. Ho ho ho. No, Christmas is about Jesus. Not Santa.

bloggy : conquering wednesday

2009-11-25T23:37:00.001-06:00

Let's just say that Wednesdays weren't my days during work. Since I've been working on Wednesdays, I've been having bad times and I'm not sure if it's just coincidence or fate is cruel. Wednesdays were terrible for me. It's what other people say that I'm 'jinxed' every Wednesday shift. I lost count how many Wednesdays that pissed me off. But that's not the case today. Nothing terrible happened. Sure, it was busy, but I didn't get pissed or upset. It was as if the drought was drenched. I've conquered Wednesday and wrapped up with a silver bow on top. With the help of a prayer and God's grace, I guess divine intervention was brought forth. And so I didn't hesitate to take it. I did a hectic job and I worked on a 'new' project that required certain protocols. And so one mistake will bring down the whole work enthusiasm. I'm glad to say that even though there were some mistakes -- at first-- I didn't let it bother me. Anyway, the so called 'curse' has been lifted. And so Wednesdays are just any other days.

bloggy : at long last!

2009-11-19T01:32:00.002-06:00

We went to pickup my grandma this past Tuesday. I almost forgot to post the pics. We were kinda early when we arrived at the airport. We drove there after we all left from work. *it was long day in the office* but everything was worth it. So we goofed around while we waited for grandma. Her flight got delayed. And when her flight finally arrived, we wondered why she wasn't still in anyone's sight. We had to split up because the airport had two exits for arrivals. Mom was getting anxious. But when a flight attendant said that someone had to be wheelchaired, that's when we knew it was her.

me and my relatives goofing off... *finally I havea goatee!*
I was explaining to them the theory of relativitybut they got bored and so they asked for a pictureinstead. I just smiled, although hurt.
someone taught her to smile. and I think they dida terrible job.

this is my sister-in-law and my brother.yes, I have an older brother.

... not sure who this is.

I'll be spending some time with my grandma for a while. I've always wanted to see her play the Wii. So... yeah. I hope you find time to spend with your family too.

And in case you were wondering if updates will be further delayed, it's because I'm caught up at work, and I'm working on my own projects like e-novels and my own graphic novel and buying equipment like pen tablets, a drawing board and a new pair of shoes. But I'll be checking here often.

gas prices. hassle.

peace.

super kudos to Manny Pacquiao!

2009-11-15T15:37:00.003-06:00

We watched the Pacquiao vs. Cotto match last night and boy people were jumping inside the living room after the match. It was loud! Congratulation to Manny Pacquiao, the first boxer, a Filipino boxer, to win a world title in seven different weight classes. Booyah!

bloggy : here they come

2009-11-05T02:58:00.009-06:00

I have my laptop, finally. It's working. At least, I'm using it right now, but the cursed laptop doesn't turn on after shutting it down. I really hate ACER! I have to do that 30-second troubleshooting method everytime I turn it on:

* take main power out
* take battery out,
* hold power button for 30 seconds,
* put battery back in and turn it on,
* then put main power back
Make sure your battery is charged.

I already had this laptop fixed three times. And I've spent so much having it fixed. If this laptop screws up once more, I'm gonna look for another non-Acer laptop. And I already bought my dad a laptop on his birthday. It was a sleek HP laptop. I'm surprised how cheap... I mean... inexpensive it is considering its specs. But hey, it's for my dad. And... I also bought my sister a desktop computer. Why? Because she said that she'd buy me a DSi on my birthday. BUT Nooooo! I don't see a DSi in my room.

Oh well... at least she won't bug me so she could use my computer.

Come to think of it, we have a lot of computers at home now. Not to mention, our printers are piling up as well. Why? Because one ink cartridge (black or colored) cost as much as the printer. So we buy a printer instead -- and we get a black and a color ink cartridge that's included in the box. How weird is that? In summary, they should make printer ink cheaper!

On a sidenote, my grandmother is coming to Canada. They've already bought her a plane ticket and she's bound to arrive this Novemeber 17. I'm really excited. Yesterday, on my way to work, I was tearing in the bus. I was hiding my face because the passengers might notice that I'm crying. I wasn't crying. It's just that I was happy that she's coming for a visit. She has come a long way! It really felt like she needs the trip and I really think that she deserves it. It's only right to see her children and her grandchildren, because it has been a long time. And I thought I really miss her. That's why I was teary-eyed on my way to work. I just told my co-workers that the cold weather made my eyes tear.

bloggy : and after the celebrations of saturday

2009-10-05T02:36:00.003-05:00

You know, I feel depressed. I really don't know what happened to me. I feel like I've burned out and I've missed everything that's going on around me. My life feels monotonous. Still I couldn't bring myself to make a change because I don't feel like it. Maybe I'm too depressed, I don't know. Probably bored. It doesn't feel right at all.

Somehow, I think that things won't be pretty this week. It's too pathetic to feel this way. I'm beginning to see that I couldn't fulfill any work that I've started. I'm stranded and I'm being left behind. I'm lousy this time and I don't feel the limelight like I should. I wonder why.

I've low spirit and I'm bothered as to what would become of me. I am fascinated of the people who know what they're doing and how they do it. It's like I've come to a stop where I have to choose without backing up. I've realized that maybe I am not that confident at all. I don't want to make many mistakes as well. Although, there's a guilt that I have to do move forward anyway and swallow all the negativity of what would follow.

So this is what feels like to become an adult. I am no longer looking to depend on my parents anymore. And the any burden that I am to answer wouldn't look for anyone but myself. My responsibilities keep adding. And I am paranoid as to what other people would expect me do. It's silly.

I pray that this week would turn out great. So great it would change my opinion of how I feel this day.

bloggy : the fall of 2009

2009-09-21T00:27:00.000-05:00

I can finally feel the chill. Fall's here and it's official to say goodbye to 2009's summer. I'll surely miss you, summer. Bye bye.

And since Fall's here, there's just one question looming in my mind. Am I ready for this year's winter?

I've save up for a new winter jacket, gloves and a new pair of shoes. I also need to change my commute and observe really close the bus schedule as to prevent frostbite before going to work. In any case, calling in sick before work is reasonable -- that is if I'm really sick.

Farmers in Canada say that this coming winter would be mild. I don't really know what their basis is, but they really know 'seasons' and they have experience. I really do hope that this year's winter would be mild.

In preparation to the coming winter, I'm also saving aside some money to buy a videocam. I'm planning to make a Christmas video to send to my folks in the Philippines. But camcorders aren't cheap. Besides, there's too much stuff I want to buy this Christmas.

bloggy : 09.09.09

2009-09-09T23:49:00.001-05:00

Wow, it's 09.09.09. So what has been happening to me until now?

First, it's kind of weird not to go to school, since today's the first day of school. I forgot, I've already graduated. Anyway, I'm starting to get bored. I find that my routine is getting older and I should do something new. Maybe I'll go bungee jumping. But it's expensive to buy proper gear. I'll just skip buying the elastic safety rope, that way, I'll save money.

September's here already and I'm getting all depressed since Summer's about over. Almost everybody's feeling the change of mood. Other people get so depressed their nose even tears -- they got colds. I'm fine. I take multivitamins everyday.

Yep, I feel really weird not having to go back to school. I've been studying for a long time now, and this is my first time to just stay at home at the start of school. Oh well, it was really quiet at home and the day-off from work made it totally worth it.

Hey is 09.09.09 a lucky day? A remember my friend telling me that whenever there's the trio-numero-date, a person will be able to perfect a task -- say you'll get a perfect score in an exam. It's a day where amazing happens. As for me, I got the pulled off the perfect sleep. Amazing.

Anyway, it's September. Fall's around the corner and it's gonna be that time of the year to buy new winter gear.

bloggy : probleme

2009-08-20T00:37:00.003-05:00

I'm having a dilemma right now. I've got two problems and I'm not sure how of my solution. Quite frankly, I'm not looking for a solution yet. I'm too lazy.

I've become too lazy. I wonder what happened. It's like I'm confused what I'm supposed to do from here on. Gasp! Is this what they call my coming of age?!

update: Make that 3 problems. The hard disk of my server just shrunk and now I'm over at the limit. I need to transfer 500+ images manually.

update 2: Phew solved the problem. I've transferred about 500+ files and deleted some excess images. Now bring that back to two problems.

bloggy : whole hearted

2009-08-09T02:00:00.004-05:00

I now know what my problem is, I've been doing things half- hearted. To everything out there that concerns my interests -- say writing, drawing, blogging, cooking, music -- I've given them short of any decent work. I've given just half the effort and I've been careless.

A half- hearted entry is boring. It's garbage. It's not even worth my time writing it. But just for the sake of publishing something, bleah. Just thinking about doing it makes me puke.

I enjoy blogging because when I started blogging I meant to blog. Because I was meant to write something that is complete *at least, IMO*, I become focused. And when someone's focused, we end up with a job well done most likely.

I should be focused and writing with all my heart.

Performing with all my heart should only be my option. It happens when you don't achieve the best, who cares? The win is sweeter knowing that you achieved the best with the help of everything you got.

Doing everything at least hundred percent, huh?

That's the first step. Ow.

Now what's the second step?

bloggy : 18 days later

2009-07-16T23:11:00.001-05:00

Learning is a long process. That's an understatement. Learning is eternal. But I didn't say that learning isn't divided into stages. Which is why I'm happy to say that I've graduated from the stage of high school -- again. What will I do with two high school diplomas?

Anyway, I didn't know that I would receive the Sam Steele award and the prestigious Governor General Medal. People say that the medal is beneficial to earning scholarships or money grants, at least. It better be: I don't have money and I want to study post education as soon as possible.

Which brings us to my other business.

It's been weeks since my last update and I totally missed blogging big time. Let's just say that things got real busy after grad. I haven't been able to properly take time to write, because I'm occupied with ginormous work. With that said, I got a raise! Woo. God is sufficient.

A lot of my friends in school kept saying that they're going to travel when they turn 21. Awkward for me to hear, since I'm already 21. No, I'm not old.

They said that they plan to go to Japan or to Vegas. I, totally, want to join 'em. I just pray that I get the money. I'm saving for university and an airplane ticket. And it ain't going to be easy. Who am I kidding? I wonder if I'll ever be able to save up to $5000 from here on.

Possible. But it'll be a struggle.

these guys suggested me that Vegas or Japan run.

I'll miss you, Ana.

See you soon, Patrick.

Best wishes to you, Amber.

I've met some great guys and girls in Elmwood. I'll miss my short high school life in Elmwood. My life was fulfilling back there and I've become more confident with myself, thanks to the great teachers of Elmwood High. It's true, I thought that my mind was going to dry up and decay, but Elmwood made me smart again. It was a challenge and I'm glad I didn't succumb to my laziness, worries and the anxiety.

I almost forgot. The students made a promise: that we be giants in the world. So here's my promise: I won't let the complications, stereotyping, materialism, and all the crap in the world belittle me. I'll become a giant problem to my problems.

bloggy : it started in the morning

2009-06-25T23:29:00.001-05:00

I went to the grad breakfast this morning. The breakfast was just an hour long, but I was able to catch up with what I missed with everyone. Remember? I stopped going to school after the first term, since I completed all my required subjects. And I had to start saving money. To be honest, I didn't want to go to the grad breakfast, because I need my sleep. Weird. 10am isn't early. Alas, I'm addicted to sleep.

And when I only slept for five hours before the grad breakfast, I was seriously having second thoughts in bed.

Yey. I'm graduating! I'll be grabbing my 2nd high school diploma this 29th, just sharing.

I'm always fascinated with how high school works. It's not hard. It's important. High school life is a bolded emphasis justified over an underline. It'll design anyone how he or she will live on; whether to continue on with college or university or through the world getting paid with work.

Oh. And here are a few photos.

After the flash, Alex knocked a teeth off of me.

Those three Asians will rule the world someday.

I should've worn my eyeglasses too.

See the height difference? Yeah, I can't see it either.

There's two weird things on this picture: 1. there's a fish behind us. 2. the Vulcan sign is right on, because my hands look out of this world... better stay off the keyboard.

After the grad, I came back home with hours to spare. I chose nothing but to get back in bed. I tell ya, that afternoon was very very peaceful, I thought I went deaf. I just realized then that peace and quiet can be a blast.

When I went to work, I met this friend on the bus. He was already on his way home, while I was just about to go to work. He said that he's loving his work, especially his pay. It made me think about looking for a second job. I'm honestly looking for a second job right now.

At work, I've had a tough time. Another reason why I want to have a second job, because my current work is hard and unpredictable. I can't say I'm loving it, but it's manageable somehow. Anyway, I'm just glad that I wrapped up okay.

Then there's the news that Michael Jackson died. I found about it at work. I wasn't shocked. I was just surprised.

Looking back, lots of things happened this Thursday. It all started in the morning. I love it when I've done a lot of things in one day. It makes it easy to sleep thinking all the many things that happened; good or bad. So right now, I'm thinking of waking up early tomorrow.

a blog. a firm hold

2009-06-21T00:01:00.005-05:00

I bought my dad a grill yesterday. I barely slept Friday night, but I didn't mind being woke up at 10 in the morning. Dad called and he was asking if I buy him a grill. and may I reiterate: HE WAS ASKING ME. HE DIDN'T TELL ME TO BUY IT. HE ASKED ME FIRST. And I know that for all the good things he has done to my life, he had the right to tell me to buy it. Instead, he asked first.

NO CRYING, BOY!

I'm betting I slept for four hours. Still I knew that my Saturday would be wonderful, so I stood up anyway. Besides, I also knew that I had to get my dad something this Sunday, good thing it's a grill. It's cheaper than a laptop.

Of course he wouldn't know that he's supposed to get a laptop this Father's Day. Don't tell him. Haha.

My dad's simple and humble. A lot of people don't know how smart he is. He's always helped me in math and physics and stuff and he drew me projects that were due next morning. He also taught my older bro. and he's waaay better than me in Arithmetic and Sciences. And people say that I'm good in Math. Hell no, I suck, and I'd usually cry to daddy when it comes to problem solving.

Not anymore. He's taught me well as well. Haha.

My dad's been valedictorian in high school and elementary where I barely excelled. I studied at the same elementary school as him and the same high school back in the Philippines. The teachers knew him.... they knew him well. Unfortunately, I didn't have the brain capacity like his when he was young. Sorry teachers, and yes, I'm his son.

Smart man. Strong ethics. How I wish to possess thee.

My dad has always been an outstanding worker. I lost count on the places where he worked, because they've been competing for his service. He worked as a teacher, engineer, project manager... erm... and more. I forgot. And he's bought a computer when there was no OS except DOS. He needed it for work. He's been doing complicated jobs ever since I can remember. Good thing I was a nosy snotty 3 year old kid back then, thanks to him, I was able to learn and use the computer using DOS at the age of 3.

He's hardworking and realizing his sacrifice would always make me pause. I mean, he had made so many sacrifice just to keep our spirits up; not to mention keep us satisfied. Settling here in Canada, hasn't been a walk in the park and we saw his dedication for the family when he went home coughing real bad. It was still cold outside and we didn't have a car yet. Sure he'd take the bus early morning, but everyday he would still need to walk a distance and wait for the bus. And my dad is very susceptible to cough and colds. Despite the cold weather, the very exhausting job, the pressure of the environment and the weariness, he didn't make a fuss. HELL NO. He didn't make any fuss. I can't stress this more, but yes, not a complain from his mouth. He didn't complain how lame his new *starting* job was and he didn't say anything that would regret him from leaving all our good stuff in the Philippines.

He was already sick, but he was still going to work because he knew what was on the line -- the impression of our future here in Canada. I know, I know. He needs to work even if he's sick, because we need food on our table. BUT... isn't that amazing? He's not supposed to do that.

My dad is also the chauffeur. I've known him driving us around since... ever. Back in the Philippines, he'd usually drive us, me and my bro, from home to the university -- cars are expensive, and no one dared to learn how to drive between us both. Anyway, everyday he'd drive for hours to and from work, pick us up and stuff, and so on. Dude, that's dedication right there.

As for games, oh yeah. He's one player. When we bought the Wii, oh boy. We had fun. My cousin commented that he wished my uncle was like him. He's still playing by the way.

My dad's also a bit lazy, I mean he doesn't go out much often. He also likes to eat. He said it makes him happy. Well, if eating and hanging around at home makes him happy, then problem solved. I'll say it's not so bad living a simple life-- not too many complicated thoughts and one can sleep easy too.

The biggest thing that would always make me stop to ponder is his amount of patience. If I look back and see all the stupid things I did when I was young, oh man, I get pissed at myself. But not my dad. He's a very patient man and how I AM THANKFUL for that.

I know that dad isn't getting any younger. And yeah, he's supposed to be taking it easy. I mean, I don't want to see him tired. He's supposed to relax... he's getting old. But life here isn't simple you know. There's some close relatives back home that need help and we need money and we're paying this house and the bills won't pay themselves and there should always be food on the table and the gas prices are hiking and and... It's these things that really make me teary eyed and I just thank my dad for everything and for the way he is. He's truly a gentleman. I envy his character and fortitude. It's also one of my goals in life to succeed after him and become better for him, so he would know that he did a heavenly perfect job raising me as a son.

You know what, it's Sunday and it's Father's day. I've been convincing myself to call in sick today. To tell you the truth, I wasn't planning to go to work. And while I was on my desk, I kept thinking that BEING AT WORK TODAY WASN'T RIGHT. How I wished to be at home and spend some quiet time with my dad. I just wanted to be at home with him. But I knew that it wouldn't make him happy knowing that I skipped work. I don't want my dad to be disappointed at me. Because I know that he did a lot of sacrifice and dedication. And for that, I love him.

Oh dear God, don't let him read this.

Anyway, Happy Father's day!

bloggy : Acer is asar

2009-06-01T02:42:00.002-05:00

Hey, I finally got my old laptop back! Problem is: it doesn't turn on. I know that the battery died out and I had it plugged in, but this cursed computer doesn't want to power on. I'm thinking that the adapter might have been switched with another laptop's adapter -- in the Philippines. Oh man, now I need to know if the adapter's mine or someone else's. If it's not mine, then it's fine. I can have it brought to me a couple of days from now. If this adapter is indeed mine, screw it. I'll be spending again to buy a new adapter: it's expensive and it's not easy to find one too. This Acer laptop is the pits.

The problem started after shutting it down. And when I came back to turn it on, the LCD screen is all black; there's nothing on it. And since, computer repairs are expensive in Canada, I had it repaired in the Philippines. It was a mobo *motherboard* problem and I had to have the mobo replaced (which is almost as expensive as buying a new computer). I wasn't able to use it for 4 months. And then I had to wait another two months for it since my brother didn't bring it with him. Just now that I received it from my cousins who came back after visiting the Philippines.

My cousin told me that it was working fine. They tried it in the airport. That's why the battery ran out. So...

Lo and behold, my laptop is back. Mobo fixed and LCD fixed, only to find out that it won't turn on -- even when it's plugged. Harhar.

bloggy : farewell scrubs and prison break

2009-05-18T20:59:00.003-05:00

The curtain falls on Scrubs and Prison Break. We were still in the Philippines when we started watching both. I love Scrubs and the humor is just phenomenal. Scrubs is bloody brilliant, a comical genius of a show that started back in 2001 to 2009 with 8 seasons. Prison Break was great and it was mind boggling. I'm satisfied how the story went with the 4 seasons from 2005 - 2009. Anyway, all good things come to an end. Bravo! Fare thee well!

funny, smart, inspiring and true.

brotherhood, perseverance, blood and justice

a blog. lullaby

2009-05-10T00:00:00.002-05:00

It was a quiet afternoon on my way to work. After boarding the bus, I slumped on my seat as I blew out a sigh thinking of the long day ahead. The bus pulled over after traveling a few distance. Then this boy and his mom boarded the bus. His mom put in their fare, the coins jingled, and they picked the seats in front of me. What happened next, I didn't see it coming.

The boy picked up the window seat and he laid down his head on his mother's lap. Then there was just a flashback that reeled in my head. I did the same thing when I was little; I would usually lay flat on the bus and rest on my mom's lap. And believe it or not, after seeing him do that, I was crying a bit. I was wiping my face, and I guess the lady behind me noticed me crying. I don't know what happened.

I guess I was sad. I was sad to face the truth that those days are over. I won't be able to go back to my childhood, the childhood days that I dearly love. And being as a young adult, I guess it's also sad to know that the transition is now happening; at my age, I shouldn't be depending on my mom -- or even dad -- anymore. I am most responsible for my actions. No more asking for allowance, those days are gone.

Halfway to work, I realized that I had to accept this fact. My mom's getting old and she's no longer at the age that would come and play tag. And I also have no more choice but to embrace these days. And I tell myself, I should be thankful for her sacrifice, blood, sweat, tear, patience and love.

I love my mom. I don't say that I love her face to face, but I do love her. And I hope she knows that I love her. I'm pulling myself to say 'I love you, Mom', in person but I just couldn't pull it. She's amazing. She does everything in the house, without bothering to wake me up. Even though it's noon and I'm still asleep, she'd finish every job without asking me for help.

I've never been disappointed with my mom. NEVER. How could I? Why would I? And the least thing that I'd want to happen is for my mom to be disappointed at me. I would never want that to happen. That's why I just swallow my uneasiness at work, where my job is so unpredictable. I don't want my mom or dad to know that I'm having difficulty working.

I know it's painful at first, but sometimes, there's some pain that goes deep and affect me. It would affect me to the point where I tend to be lazy and irresponsible. But nothing is more painful than your parents thinking that they've raised a disappointing son. I'm blessed that I haven't made them disappointed and I'm striving to do my best not to disappoint them in the future. Besides, my pain is nowhere near to the pain that I've caused them. I mean, it was a trip, a journey, a quest -- for the one ring -- for my mom to raise me. *laughs*

Even if there's no apparent big deal about Mother's day, Mom, I still love you.

a blog. emotion sickness

2009-05-02T23:33:00.004-05:00

Why do I always feel lousy when it comes to Saturday evenings? That's probably the same question asking why I can't find the rest I'm looking for during Saturday evenings. Sunday's an awfully busy day for me. I feel awful at work because the rude people I come across just wreck my day. I'm still not used to it and it's lonely riding that bus all by myself, especially when clouds are so gray, I'd rather stay on the bus and miss work. My last three shifts were a wreck because I've been assigned another set of work and, despite being a noob, I've become more unfamiliar with the new work they gave me.

I've made a lot of mistakes during my last 3 shifts. A lot of mistakes. I know, it's a learning curve and there might be some pain. People experience that when they work, but will I be patient and tolerant enough? Being at the bottom sure is tough, especially when you're stuck and see other people being able to climb. Market research, I better not regret it.

I need to find a way not to let work affect me. I need to be more professional. I need to manage my time better. I need to lecture myself.

a blog. spring sproing

2009-04-25T19:41:00.004-05:00

Oh crap. Tomorrow's going to be another long day. So far, I'm getting used to my work, but I'm still, what people say, a noob. So seven hours is still pretty long for me. I know. Seven hours is nothing, right? That's what I tell myself.

Today's, Saturday, my late grand dad's birthday. My mom's put up a celebration for him. After drum practice, my relatives are going to join us for the celebration.

They're already here.

I'm looking forward to finishing the Sunday, Monday and Tuesday shifts properly.

The weather's improved. It snowed this morning. It's spring, mind you. One of my classmates told me that, one time, it snowed in the middle of June, here in Winnipeg. Extreme.

took these photos during practice. I was in the urge to take some.

a blog. pay day

2009-04-21T23:56:00.005-05:00

Pay day. There will be a time in my life when pay day won't be as much as a big deal as it is to me now. But for the mean time, I'll savor the moment of pay days.

Did you know that I'm saving money for a car, college and a ticket to visit my home country, the Philippines? I'd like to give my mom's mom and my dad's mom and dad... a visit. [could've said grandparents instead, huh?] I especially want to visit our very old dog before she goes onto her next life. Sometimes I think that she wants to see us before she passes away, and the sad thing is I take that thought for granted -- considering that she's been with us for a long time. Don't worry, my grandparents are taking good care of her.

Father time catches us all. I just hope I can catch them first.

What have I been doing in the past months, you might be wondering? Well, I was busy working. Please don't ask how many jobs.

Oh yeah, and I'm waiting for my laptop. I had it fixed from the Philippines. Actually, my older brother had it fixed and I'm counting on him to forget the bill as well. [quite a painful bill too] When it comes back, I'm back on the writing business. I can't write roleplay blog entries and stuff because I have my drafts in that computer. Lame excuse, huh?

*looks at latest update* OCTOBER?! OCTOBER?! OCTOBER WAS MY LATEST ROLEPLAY BLOG ENTRY?!

bloggy: chips chips chips

2009-03-17T00:31:00.004-05:00

After drum practice, I went to the grocery to buy something to eat; something that is Microwaveable. I'm a Microwavetarian. Although, being an omnivore isn't a bad thing either. Anyway, I was surprised to find these little fellas.

this is not an advertisement...
They're chips from the Philippines [talking about the top shelf]. I didn't know they had the quality to be exported from my beloved country. I used to eat these chips when I still had snot on my nose. But then they told everyone that they were the food of the devil, I mean, they were too unhealthy to eat. I think that was too exaggerated and we think that almost all chips are unhealthy. So it didn't bother me.

Normally I wouldn't see these products anywhere, but, hey, small world, isn't it? I forgot to ask for an autograph. Damn.

I will miss you, Francis "Kiko" Magalona.

2009-03-06T07:19:00.007-06:00

It was all too surreal. I couldn't take it in. December of 2008, me and my mom were just talking about his fight against Leukemia. He was a fighter. Francis even posted pictures on his blog from the medical treatment. And then we watched his Francis M. video when he returned to Eat Bulaga, a noontime show, his home. I, for one, was happy to see him back in action. And it was then that I wished for him to keep fighting.

"I look forward to the pain as I know my journey is on full speed ahead. I will not be bold to say that without asking a favor from you all. PLEASE PRAY for me as I undergo treatment. Your prayers, as always, have sustained me. And am sure the Lord will listen to all our prayers. To His will I submit myself."
-from the blog of Francis Magalona | http://francismagalona.multiply.com

Two in the morning. I knew. I discovered. While I was delighted to discover that Quest Crew had won the America's Best Dance Crew season 3, my brother sent me a message.

Francis Magalona passed away.

Francis has been one of my childhood bridges. He was so patriotic; he loved the Philippines so much. He expressed this love through what he did best, through music. He was named the King of Philippine Rap, The Man from Manila, The Mouth, The Master Rapper. He was one of my influences in the music scene. Not only did he rap and write songs, Francis was a jack of all trades kind of person. That's why he's my idol.

He was a photographer. He was a host. He was an actor. He was a scriptwriter. He had his own clothing line (FMCC - Francis Magalona Clothing Line), and he was also a producer. His work involved his love for his country and his love for the Filipino children. He motivated everyone through his music. And he became an icon in the Filipino Music industry. But despite his fame, Francis M. never let it get over his head. He was a very humble person; very Simple. He shared his blessings and he helped young artists and rappers alike to pursue their dreams.

I sat on my computer quiet. My delight didn't matter anymore. I just realized that a childhood bridge has passed away. And something from my past started to reel in.

I remembered running. I was playing tag with my cousins outside. Yes, I was in my Grandma's house. And while we were playing, I remember hearing "Kaleidoscope World" being played too -- maybe it came from neighbors. From then on, it got stuck in my head.

Back in front of my monitor, I was in plain nostalgia and my hands on the keyboard stopped for a couple of minutes.

KALEIDOSCOPE WORLD - FRANCIS M.

(kaleidoscope.swf - 987kb)

So many faces, so many races
Different voices, different choices
Some are mad, while others laugh
Some live alone with no better half
Others grieve while others curse
And others mourn behind a big black hearse
Some are pure and some half-bred
Some are sober and some are wasted
Some are rich because of fate and
Some are poor with no food on their plate
Some stand out while others blend
Some are fat and stout while some are thin
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most

Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin' round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world

Some are great and some are few
Others lie while some tell the truth
Some say poems and some do sing
Others sing through their guitar strings
Some know it all while some act dumb
Let the bass line strum to the bang of the drum
Some can swim while some will sink
And some will find their minds and think
Others walk while others run
You can't talk peace and have a gun
Some are hurt and start to cry
Don't ask me how don't ask me why
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most

Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin' round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world

There's love in his songs. There's no violence. It's about Patriotism. He loved the Philippines and he encouraged Filipinos, young and old, to do so as well.

Thank you so much for your songs. Thank you for the inspiration. Thank you for everything. Kiko, we love you. God Bless and you will never be forgotten.

Francis Magalona (October 4, 1964 - March 6, 2009)

bloggy : fork in the road

2009-01-31T23:44:00.005-06:00

The last day of the first month, the 31st, is done. There you go. The cliche clicked again -- time's too fast. It's fine by me, I finished my finals anyway. Term 2 will start this Monday, but I don't have subjects for term 2. What I want to say is: I'm done with high school.

So... WHAT NOW?! *SHRIEKS*

bloggy : 2008 is so last year

2009-01-01T01:41:00.004-06:00

2008 is the year of the Ox. Haru's time to shine.

Christmas and celebrating the New Year is different here in Winnipeg. IMO, I prefer how I spend Christmas back in the Philippines. I'll probably rant all the way. Excuse me. But you know, I just love the days when we spent Christmas back in the Philippines. How relatives gather together and laugh. How friends drown themselves in a crowd in front of a lively concert. How I sit back outside and just relax in a cool and comforting climate while watching giant lanterns make their lights dance in techno.

I talked about this to my friend while we were in McDonald's. He told me that he got kicked out of his house. I was surprised. Family issues. And he isn't the type of guy to make a mess too. It's far-fetched and I probably got affected a bit too. He's my friend and it's almost Christmas. And so I was thinking that he would have to spend Christmas away from home.

When I asked how he felt, he wasn't sad or at least didn't look like it. The very essence of celebrating Christmas is celebrating it with your family and friends. Family is still important though. Now he couldn't. I told him that he could celebrate Christmas with us. He humbly refused and so I had nothing more to say. But still...

I told him how Christmas is so different in the Philippines. It's hard to convince them with words, so I told him that one Christmas, I'd take him and the others there. That is if I have the money.

Then I totally missed my home country more when I went off telling him how the streets were bright and colorful during December. Such a sigh to remember.

Yes, the streets are bright and colorful. Lots of people walking. But not like a you're stuck in a tough crowd. I mean the streets are lively and the atmosphere isn't boring.

It's like Christmas is the most awaited day there. There are Christmas songs in the radio, even on the streets as early as August. I think earlier than August too... And there was a point in my life when Christmas lasted until March.

It's like the Philippines changes when December shows up. The air becomes comfortably cold. It's not below zero but it's something that really soothes me up. There's food everywhere. Random people who are having barbecue outside would offer you to eat with them as well. The town becomes alive during the night. There are lanterns everywhere. Christmas decors and lights fill each house like there's some competition in one block. The place just lights up and it gives out a happy feeling.

I told you, I love Christmas in the Philippines, especially during the night. During the day, it could still be hot, because of our tropical climate. But night skies and the night temperature embraces me in a way I couldn't describe. It's something cold that would make me smile. And the skies look different too.

Food. I remember eating puto bumbong, a cake during Christmas, and the bibingka, another type of cake that I especially love. They're one of my favorites since I was little. Oh, man, I want to eat some now.

The market place becomes alive in the night as well. It's like a big party. The front of the church is one place to visit during Christmas.

Anyone I know would visit the mall as well. There's a lot of good stuff there that are cheap too. The quality isn't compromised, mind you. Exported goods, branded clothes, shoes, furniture, electronics, yep, they're cheap in the Philippines and they get cheaper in Christmas. It's unbelievable.

Parties, man! Family parties, family gatherings and house parties from friends! Oh God, it's priceless.

And after Christmas, what else? The coming of the new year.

More parties. Concerts. More stuff to buy. More food. And fire crackers. And did I forget to mention more parties? Haha, I miss my Philippines.

It`s just different here. My new home isn't bad. 2008 wasn't bad as well. It has been great. I had no serious problems at school. Work was slow. I've made many friends. I've had many experiences and encounters. I've learned and accomplished a lot of things. There were some challenges, but I solved most of them. We bought our new home. There was just a lot that I couldn't everything. 2008 wasn't boring at all.

I'm still a hopeless romantic though.

Do I have any New year's resolution(s)? Erm... does anyone still do new year's resolutions? I guess if there`s one thing I need to fix, I'll go and fix my sleep. I need more of it.

And here comes my favorite part. I usually go to the rooftop during the sunrise of the year and pray. Now it`s impossible since: A.) it`s freezing outside. B.) I couldn't climb our roof because of all the snow on the roof. C.) it's steep and I`d fall down because of the angle and the slippery snow -- but the impact wouldn`t be so hard, since there`s a lot of snow below.

It has been a habit of mine to meet the first sunrise and just watch the sun make its way. Then pray.

I pray for a lot of things this 2009. I pray for good health. I pray for my work. I pray for my studies. I pray that my family and friends' would be safe. I pray for providence.

I'm sure there will be more blessings this year. 2009 will be great.

Goodbye 2008.

bloggy: here goes nothing!

2008-12-08T00:22:00.004-06:00

Wow, it's December and I should put up the Christmas songs back in Furuba Radio. They've just been sitting at the bottom of the list, waiting for Christmas. Haha.

I don't even know where to start. I guess I've missed so much, huh? I keep telling myself to give you updates often, but there's a ton in my list that needs attention. Let's start.

Driving. Thursday's going to be one heck of a ride as my instructor would evaluate me. I'm still jerky with the gas and the brake. Curses. And I think I get anxious behind the steering wheel too.

Interviews. We have the exit interviews this week. Wednesday would be the proper interview, in front of a panelist of employers. I hope I won't choke. Or I hope I won't sound like I'm showing off. But isn't it the point of the interview to show yourself off so that they'd hire you?

Laptop Crashed. My freaking laptop crashed on me. I just turned it off recently. When I came back to turn it on, the damn screen was black. The laptop is on, the lights are on, I can hear Windows start up, but there's just no screen. I'm thinking that maybe the there are loose connections or that my inverter is dope. Anyway, I don't feel like spending bucks to get it repaired since I'm saving to buy a new laptop. I hope someone would lend me money this coming Friday. I want to get it fixed ASAP, since I use it for work.

Christmas. Christmas is coming. I need money!!

The last sentence counts twice!

bloggy : give and take

2008-11-04T23:10:00.003-06:00

I finished the day with a physics test and my Driver 5L Written Test today. I have a wonky feeling about my physics, but I passed my Driver Written test with flying colors. I passed it! Woohoo! I finally have my Learner License! I can drive! Which means, when I have to go pick up somebody, deliver something, or drive somebody to work, they'll be looking at me. What a privilege!

My cousin was extra happy. It's a 30 item test: 20 multiple questions and 10 sign questions. He had 6 mistakes and he passed. However, 7 mistakes could've failed him and he was like "Ahhhh..." relieved -- like just making in time to the bathroom from an awful loose bowel movement. I'm just happy I passed. We're just happy we passed.

I believe there's only one person who failed the written test. But it's not a problem if you fail it.

I've finally organized my first band in school. We're called Over the Top and we're thinking of playing at the talent show. I have a mixed sensation about it. It's true that we'll get a fair amount of exposure and experience if we play at the talent show, but I can't help think that it's a small venue. I don't really care. I just want to play. And so does everyone in the band.

left to right: Alex, Andy, some bother, Harry and Will

I am probably the shortest guy in the band. And the oldest in the band -- but I hope I'm the wisest too. I've already had a long experience playing in a band (combo) and I've already been involved in four bands already, not including Over The Top. And so finally, I've been able to compose two songs. Wee. Wow, and now I think I'm turning corny for writing both of them as love songs.

November is here and forecasts tell that there will be snow on the weekend. WHAT?! No freakin way. So fast. I'm not ready for winter yet. In fact, other provinces in Canada have already experienced snow fall. I need a new jacket and we need to clean the roof first. I can't remember if last year's winter arrival was also this quick.

bloggy : this godfather has one week left of prepping up

2008-10-20T23:39:00.006-05:00

I am officially a godfather yesterday. We went to Royal Forks and we celebrated Seth's, my godchild's, blessing. There was a ton of crowd and I'm betting the buffet had a great time as well. It was a long long time since the last time I ate in a buffet. So when it was my turn, I almost screamed like a girl and I ran like I was freed from prison.

Seth's really quiet. I've never seen such a quiet little baby. I mean, when I was asked to hold him up for a picture, I think I had to adjust 3 times on handling him. I'm not really that good in handling babies, but he didn't make any fuss. I mean I was really disturbing him, but he doesn't cry. He loves to sleep, I guess. And when he's awake, he just looks at me with his round eyes. 'Watchulookinat? I asked him and then he smiled.

It's really a shame that I became full too quick. I was convincing my brain to eat more, but I couldn't. Then I told him to make more room, but I failed. The celebration was fantastic and the food was great. burp.

I can't wait to be a godfather again. burp.
Yesterday was great, but I had a tough weekend. We've had a lot of guests last Saturday. It was my Dad's birthday celebration. There were people inside the house and they were all over the place. I had to share my room with a bunch of children and I can't even fit inside my room to start with. But it was all good. Happy times. I knew our house isn't boring.

And before the birthday celebration, I've had two drum practices. One for our band, one for our church band. Our band, called Over the Top, will be playing on the 50th Elmwood Anniversary this coming Friday and Saturday. We're all set. I think.

Well, the thing is, this is my first time to play on stage -- the drums I mean. And since this is a full band concert somewhat, we don't have a freakin bassist. The bass and the drums go along with each other. I'm incomplete. [sobs]

Anyway, I'm getting hyped up, excited and anxious. This weekend will be something different. If ever we'll be able to record it, I'm going to share it here. I'm really praying it goes well. I'm confident, but I hope my band is also confident. [memorize the lyrics cough cough]

bloggy: summer's over!

2008-09-02T20:11:00.005-05:00

My summer vacation is over! Waah! It was such a short summer! How come summer vacations are always short?! They shouldn't do that! It's almost a crime for summer to be short, isn't it? Anyway, I'm going back to school: high school. In any case, I have to finish one last subject in order to apply for a University course. You know, I'm getting left behind. Way behind. I'll be studying post secondary the moment my 15 year old friend graduates from high school. I know, I know. I'm old.

Summer's over. Welcome to the 2008 -ber months. It's the start of Fall and the proof is-- it's getting cold. I wore a thin shirt outside and my body rusted. It's just cold. I expect the temp. to get even colder, like colder than your freezer.

My relatives will be living here in the heartwarmingly cold city of Winnipeg. Our family is growing. Soon we'll be able to set up our own village. I can't wait to see them. They're flight is October 4. We arrived here last year, Feb.24 and our first day here is priceless.

All right, it's getting late. OWNO! I just admitted it! There's school tomorrow.

bloggy : fun crap huh?

2008-08-13T22:18:00.003-05:00

Well, it has been really quiet for me for the past days. After moving my stuff to this new house, all I've ever had is worries. One of my worries is that I've lost my brother's cellphone and that it got stuck as a pest in my head, I couldn't sleep right. I couldn't feel right. Yes, why couldn't I be happy that I've got my own house and my own room. I blew it again. Responsibility.

A lousy cellphone. Gone missing. And it got me static a couple of days. Very static. Why?

I didn't do anything after moving in. Breathe, eat, sleep, take a bath, that's it. All for a misplaced cellphone. Why?

I didn't want to disappoint my brother. I didn't want to give them a proof that I'm incompetent. I was held responsible for it, but it wasn't my fault to let it go missing. And with missing items during your moving day, it's really unsatisfying. Anyway, it happened, and I couldn't set my head straight for such a shallow reason.

Friday. When all of this started. I was on bed sleeping. My sister borrowed it to take pictures. I entrusted it to her. Night came, I left my laptop with her. I didn't ask for the cellphone anymore, knowing that it's with her and that I wouldn't need it for tonight. It was just one night anyway, and we'll be moving stuff Saturday morning.

Saturday. Moved heavy stuff. *Refer to my previous entry. Searched for it really hard. I didn't find it.

Sunday. I'm beginning to worry. I forgot my acoustic box. And I forgot my acoustic box the past Sunday. Sunday's ruined and I let everybody down. Sorry, Pastor.

Monday. I remembered setting it with a 7 o'clock alarm Mondays to Fridays. Got up and searched. It's already on its third day missing, and there's still no sign of it. When he told me that he'd cancel that number, I told him strictly not to, since it's still ringing. Which means it's somewhere between the apartment and the new house, and no stranger had claimed it yet -- so there's still hope. Unfortunately, he canceled it. I had no more comment.

I searched high and low, and I even told my sister that it's hers if she could find it. That's how desperate I was to getting it over. But to no avail.

Tuesday, yesterday, I woke up with yet blood shot eyes, with the worry still intact. It was raining. Six thirty in the morning I walked from the house to the apartment. I was in a hurry and I didn't put on proper clothes. It was cold, but I didn't mind. I really wanted to get this over with.

The apartment. 7 o'clock struck and I was hoping that the alarm would give it away. There was no alarm. I forgot to mention -- the cellphone was set to vibrate mode -- And I got extra worried. I had searched the new house, and if it wasn't in the apartment, it's all screwed.

There was no alarm and I began to panic in the apartment. I searched outside, the living room, my room, bathroom, my parent's room. With useless results, I began searching my mom's purse.

And then I found it there.

I don't know how it got it there. Mom didn't know how it got there. It was like a miracle -- like it popped out of nowhere and into her purse.

Good, I found the cellphone. I phoned home. In the end, I squirmed when I heard that I still had to pay $135. I don't want to pay that much because I need money to buy stuff for my room. And I specifically told my brother not to cancel it. But he had it canceled anyway.

Wednesday. I wasn't in the mood to be entertaining. But my cousin visited us. He was just done with his high school enrollment. I had no choice but to be entertaining as I could. I thought it would help me forget. I thought wrong. Wednesday went pleasant until evening.

[to be continued]

bloggy : the [insert adjective] day

2008-08-10T01:23:00.004-05:00

Saturday is unbelievable.

I couldn't sleep early Saturday morning. 9 o'clock, they pulled me out of bed. I got four hours of sleep for a full day's work: ANYWAY, 9 o'clock and my eyes are still blood-shot. I can see veins under my eyes. I was aware of the date, still I insisted to stay in bed. RESISTANCE WAS FUTILE.

It's moving time.

Yes, we've found our new home and we've decided to move this Saturday. I started carrying heavy-loads and furnitures, placing them around the house, *tables, sofas, couches, beds, mattresses, traveling bags, chairs, end tables and so on*. We had one pickup and we had a lot. In the end we made three trips. Fortunately, we were able to finish carrying, placing and damaging surfaces around 3. *oh well, it's our house anyway*

We're not done yet. My hands are starting to hurt.

We went to Superstore and bought food. We went to Value Village and bought a keyboard that turned out nothing but crap and we can't have it replaced *wasted 6 bucks*. We went to Dollarama and bought hooks, some stuff and especially a paintbrush to paint over the 'damage' during the move. It's amazing how I kept up with the pace, and my lunch was just five spoonful of rice.

My body's craving for sleep and my room's a mess. My room's like an abstract art or a dumpster because of my stuff thrown everywhere. I almost tripped on my XBox. And I found my earphones that I thought I lost a year ago.

We had casualties. My dad misplaced his expensive cellphone and I misplaced my cellphone that I borrowed from my older bro. Lucky.

6PM we had practice for Church tomorrow. The Bible study ended around 9PM. We went back to he apartment to fetch more stuff around 10. It's official, my arms were literally shaking and I couldn't stand up properly. It felt good. I can still go for it.

I'm being blamed for misplacing my brother's cell. Although, I entrusted my laptop together with my cellphone with to my sister. Yep. It's my fault all right. Good thing my room has a lock on it, I'm going to be strict from now on. All my stuff will be kept there.

My fingers are ready for damage this Sunday, if ever I'll be using my acoustic box. But Pastor said to use the drums. I'm happy.

We've lost a lot of stuff during the move. I really think we're not prepared to move out of the apartment yet. But I'm sure the things we've misplaced will turn up eventually.

* Sorry, I'll add the smileys later. Tired. *smiles*

wow, it's almost two in the morning.

COMING SOOOOOON. after I fix my room. and find that phone.

bloggy : summer evacuation

2008-07-21T15:07:00.000-05:00

I'm back. Hwooh. I'm back! It's summer break and I'm loving it. But I think I've enjoyed it too much, because I haven't made any update. That short hiatus? oops. Sorry, it's just my natural instinct to be lazy... uh, extra lazy during summer break. Speaking of summer break, my body clock's out of tune. Totally. Yes, yes. Summer break means nightlight savings time for yours truly. I mean, I wake up at 4 in the afternoon and sleep at 4 in the morning. I don't drink. I don't smoke. I sleep late. I am such a healthy kid.

from left to right: some smiling retard *boku*, my cousin and my other cousin.
SUMMAH! WAAAAH! [THE BELL RINGS. EVERYONE THROWS PAPER IN THE CLASSROOM AND RUNS OUTSIDE THE SCHOOL] It's like New Year without the kisses and fireworks... and karaoke... plus it's done during the day. You know, I've been waiting for summer break, since first day of school.

I'm so much too very surprised really during day of high school awarding. You know, where they award students for doing something excellent? I've taken home 13 awards including free money. 13 awards-- not bad, huh? but I wasn't the high school Valedictorian. It's all right. I wasn't Valedictorian because I'm not graduating yet. This school year I'll be graduating. FINALLY! FINALLY! FINALLY!

left to right: Phil, some guy who ruined the picture, and Harrison.
to the defense of the guy who ruined the picture: 'it was windy.'

I just realized. I won't see two of my friends next year. They've graduated! DESPITE HAVING 13 AWARDS, I AM FALLING BEHIND! And I didn't even go to their grad party. Wow, what I did is almost a crime. At least, I have their number.

Oh yeah, we've found a big house. We're going to move this August.

LOSING MY HEAD NOTICE

2008-06-06T01:07:00.008-05:00

Hey y'all, I'm still alive. Exams are coming up and things are tight for me right now. For the next two weeks, I won't be going online and I need to finish everything. FruitsBlogsket is not going anywhere and is here to stay. There will just be a short hiatus and I'll be definitely back with some fansite updates for everyone. The hiatus will not be exclusive for this site, but for my other fansites / sideprojects as well. Here's my FINALS list and I will keep you posted:

- Foods Final presentation.
- PreCal Provincial and Finals.
- Foods Final exam.
- Accounting Finals
- Applied Math Finals.
- Chemistry Unit Test.
- Chemistry Finals.
- Launch of TEENSIDE Chronicles

Happy Mother's Day

2008-05-11T23:01:00.000-05:00

I feel like I'm going to have one helluva week. First, I got to watch Iron Man twice. Second, I was able to buy a book about elegant sketching illustrations. Third, my dad bought me a new pair of shoes. Fourth, I have finally bought a Nintendo Wii this Mother's Day. My Mom's using it right now. It's funny to watch my Mom and Dad laugh while playing this Nintendo contraption. The best Mother's Day gifts are those that you can benefit from, isn't it? Happy Mother's Day everyone!

diary : webbytalks

2008-04-26T23:19:00.002-05:00

A lot of people don't know but I've started blogging since 2000. A lot of people also didn't know my old hairstyle. Anyway, I started making webpages in my father's office, exploiting, I mean... utilizing their DSL connection for my own benefit... I mean... my future development. I used Yahoo's Geocities[dot]com for making little webpages. Ever since then, I started getting the hang of it. Afterwards, I started blogging right when I was about to graduate from sixth grade.

I think I already wrote an entry about this-- in Studentlife.

I created studentlife @ blog-city[dot]com. It was my official homepage. It's about my misadventures from my high school life, from Pampanga High School. I now realized the challenge of high school. It's a totally different experience. I found everything harder. Even lunchtime was hard.

Sadly, Studentlife is no longer available. I have no official homepage. [although I'm planning to build one] I was devastated when I received a notification that Blog-City no longer offers its free service. [and they gave me this notification right when we landed here in Canada-- yeah, after all the long flight, exhausting lines and long waits] I can't afford a paid blog yet, so I had to let it go. Alas 30441 hits. Good thing, I saved my entries.

Listen, one of the major reasons why I started blogging is because of my high school life. I had a lot of difficulty with it. I was surrounded by people who eat numbers for breakfast, who write their homework at school, who formulate hypotheses from mere seconds of observation, who argues about matter and anti- matter, who slack and get As at the same time, who build bomb-defusing robots during the science fair, who memorize their WHOLE report when reporting about their report, who looked bored in class but perfects each exam...

I was just culturally shocked.

Fortunately, I had my own merits. Like being able to use the computer in DOS at the age of 3, able to play complete drums in 3rd grade, winning a National IT Olympiad as the first runner-up, webdesigning and internet stuff, writing crap and such.

It's not a good idea to compare merits. It's really self- explanatory. We're all unique. We know it's impossible to be good at everything.

High school was also a reason why I stopped drawing. Oh yeah, my classmates were also into drawing. Ugh. I lost my time from finding something new everyday. You probably wouldn't believe that I had no time for it. But the truth is, I didn't have time for it, except for school projects. But then again, my drawings sucked and I got even more dissatisfied.

After high school. My friends rekindled the light of my interest in anime. My friends also got me back to drawing. Four years of not doing any drawings, made my best effort look like a chicken scratch. I got really bad and I lost my style. Then one of my friends, who started writing his novel about Philippine Folklore and Folktales [with swords and cleavers and jungle bolos and knives... and forks... and pointy things] suggested that I should write my own novel.

I took his word and tried it. And I found it interesting. I think it's fun writing stories and I don't get bored with the challenge. I had a pretty good start, but I can't show it to the world yet. I will. Soon. And now he's telling me to write my own manga. *snorts* yeah right. [thinks again]. Maybe I will.

My workstations. Fully paid by my own blood and sweat.
You know, I really miss my friends back in the Philippines. Musta na mga prens? I bet you're having the time of your lives. It's summer there. I can almost imagine them enjoying the beach-- while I cry in a corner.

It's my Tita's birthday tomorrow. I almost forgot. I need to get up early. Got to go.

diary : when there is stress

2008-04-17T22:12:00.007-05:00

I just finished my Filipino 40S exam. It's worth four credits and I'm hoping to hog all four of them. BWAHAHA - instant four freakin' credits. It's a good thing I still know my way around with the Filipino language.

Basically, it's about reading Filipino text, listening to the Filipino language, writing in Filipino and speaking in Filipino -- not Tagalog; FILIPINO. There, it's bold and uppercased.

It wasn't hard - for me - because it has only been a year since we arrived here in Canada. But I wasn't surprised for my fellow examinees that were born here. I mean, they were panicking and stuff. I can't blame them. But is it really okay not to have an idea?

As I look around the room while answering the test papers, (the writing and reading part) I figured out that they were having trouble. The listening part was easy but the oral part of the exam revealed the people who can still talk fluent Filipino.

The reading, writing and listening parts were given on Tuesday. 3 full hours of ear-tiring, eye-burning, hand-twitching exams. But the oral part was carried out the next day, Wednesday, and it only lasted for twenty minutes.

Filipinos, who recently migrated here, have all the advantage to this test ; not to mention 4 credits easy; that is if one is taking the Filipino 40S level. If one is taking the 30S level, it's worth 3 credits, 20S is worth 2, and the 10S is worth 1.

My cousin had a little hard time with the oral part but he managed to pull it off. I think. Yeah, I think he did pull it off. He's been here for three years now. I wonder if three years would twist my tongue not to speak fluent Filipino.

Oh yeah, I didn't go to school today. I was sick. [and the crowd goes yeahhhhhh riiiiight]. No, for real. My head was aching and the world was spinning when I got out of bed. My arms were like spaghetti and I held the wall. I stood and thought about what was happening. Then I decided to sleep again and I woke up at 12 in the afternoon. My mom didn't mind and she was asking if I was feeling fine. I mean, I slept at 8 last night and that's really early. I usually sleep at 2 in the morning... do the math. It explains the pimples and my old face. *nervous laugh*.

Speaking of Math: I hate Chemistry.

What I hate is, I understand the formulas, but I think the solution from my teacher and my solutions don't match. My teacher has a method that I keep on forgetting. Or I keep on questioning it whether he did it right or I did it wrong. Shit-take mushrooms!

I need halp! Halp me!

Yep. Chemistry is still my waterloo after all.

Despite my absence, I was able to finish a lot of school work and personal work at home. Unbelievable, and I thought I was able to sleep the whole day. Well, I didn't want to postpone the things I WANTED to do for the things I HAD to do. So the schedule for my web-projects still stand:

April 2008 - launching of Fruitsblogsket ver.2 gallery. by Kimikimkimster

April 2008 - first chapter of 'Stranded' and 'Started' novel. by Sam Wahn.

June 2008 - launch of Teenside Chronicles. [webcomic and novel] by Noa Nimhus

June 2008 - launch of The Neverending Scrapbook and Something Else [e-novel, etc. Sam means the etcetera] by Sam Wahn

July 2008 - launch of Yuu, Andy, Ai [e-novel and illustrative novel] by Sam Wahn.

July 2008 - web launch of Do What Eye Tell You [e-novel] by Sam Wahn.

Pain is part of learning.

diary : spring break is over

2008-04-06T12:20:00.000-05:00

Hey what the fudgenuggets? Spring Break is over. That was one of the fastest week I've ever lived. One day I was talking about the start of spring break and now it's just... *looks at previous blog entry* so... what happened? I pretty much stayed at home and tried to catch up with the things I missed. I went to birthday parties. I was able to exercise. And eat a lot. I grew another pimple. I took screenshots of Fruits Basket *from a selected 2256 screenshots*. I was able to MANUALLY resize and MANUALLY enhanced each screenshot . I was able to find a PSP for me. I discovered that I might've a potential refund from work and taxes and stuff *MONEY! WAH! I NEED THE REFUND SO BAD!*. I did homework, bleagh. I was able to draft something for my e-novel projects. Hmm... but we didn't get to go the cinema, drat. Despite everything, I need one more week off! Haha. Honestly. I'm serious.

BTW, the new FRUITSBLOGSKET GALLERY will be up this week, because I didn't make it in time to code the new layout . However, the screenshots are already uploaded in my server. The next thing to do in my list is renovate the boring gallery and insert the episode screenshots. Finishing the gallery would take off one thorn for this fansite.

HAIR! HAIR! HAIR! BOOGER! HAIR! HAIR!

I've began to wonder: can I grow my old hair back? I'm starting to get tired of my spikey-doo. Maybe I do want to grow my hair back. I used to have long hair, but migration got in the way. Why you ask? Well because everyone knows that terrorists aren't allowed to enter another country, not to mention the airport. Having long hair, they said I look like a terrorist. O-kay.

At first, I just shaved my goatie, which is also a huge sacrifice for your information. So I had no facial hair. Just clear and plain old person with a long hair. However, shaving the goatie was still short. And the weird thing is people started calling me "Ma'am" for it. Yeah. The cashier at McDonalds, the cashier at the mall, the waiter at MY FAVORITE restaurant, they called me Ma'am.

No kidding.

How can they mistake me for a girl? In the end, I was PRESSURED to cut my hair. One reaon I can't grow it back is because, I work. And my boss isn't particular of it. Still, maybe I should try it.

diary : spring break

2008-04-01T00:52:00.005-05:00

Hey, it's finally spring break! I know, I know, I should probably be getting back to blogging, right? No? You don't want me writing? Oh- okay then. Whatever. Anyway, I've planned this week for updating: mainly finishing the Memorable Quotes and the Gallery, And a bunch of other stuff too.

cooking on some experimental updates
Oh man, I haven't planned anything special for Spring Break. I'm just going to jog outside and sleep a lot, I guess. Hey, come to think of it, this is my first Spring Break in Canada.

early Easter

2008-03-15T00:45:00.001-05:00

Easter falls on March 23rd this year.

Easter is always the 1st Sunday after the 1st full moon after the Spring Equinox (which is March 20). This dating of Easter is based on the lunar calendar that Hebrew people used to identify passover, which is why it moves around on our Roman calendar.

I found out a couple of things you might be interested in! Based on the above, Easter can actually be one day earlier (March 22) but that is pretty rare.

Here's the interesting info. This year is the earliest Easter any of us will ever see the rest of our lives! And only the most elderly of our population have ever seen it this early (95 years old or above!). And none of us have ever, or will ever, see it a day earlier! Here's the facts:

1) The next time Easter will be this early (March 23) will be the year 2228 (220 years from now). The last time it was this early was 1913 (so if you're 95 or older, you are the only ones that were around for that!).

2) The next time it will be a day earlier, March 22, will be in the year 2285 (277 years from now). The last time it was on March 22 was 1818. So, no one alive today has or will ever see it any earlier than this year!

3) Just hope that you are still around next month or you will miss the event of your lifetime. I'm sticking around for the one on Mar 22 in the year 2285."

diary : unusual turn of events

2008-03-10T23:19:00.003-05:00

Wooh, finally we've been able to film our independent short-film called "A Rude Awakening." I don't know if that's that, and I'm not sure if we're going to film something for ourselves in the Winnipeg Film Group. If we were to film something for our own, I think we're going to have a hard time since there's only three weeks left for the course to finish.

Enough about Filming. So how's your studies? Me? Neh, I'm doing good, there's nothing special to talk about, I mean. But I'll tell you something somewhat funny. We had a test last Thursday in Math. When the teacher handed in my paper, it was just a so-so score. After handing every result to everyone, she back in front with a big concern on her face. Then my eyes grew when she told the class that there's a problem: only one kid passed the exam. She didn't mention the name and I just kept quiet.

Oh man, my seatmate was laughing and thinking it was really funny that I was the only one who passed the test. Come to think of it, this never happened to me before, neither hearing something that only one man passing an exam. Anyway, I have two huge tests tomorrow and I don't feel that confident: Pre-cal and Chemistry -- both are my waterloo subjects.

Enough about school. So how's my life? My e-novels are taking too long to write. It's hard doing all the writing, grammar checks, brainstorming, checking for continuity errors and spicing all by myself. Oh well, it's a part of writing anyway. And there's really no one to blame but myself for taking up this challenge in the first place. So I decided to write something out that's easier and at least would satisfy any progress.

My experimental project called TEENSIDE CHRONICLES [under the pen name Sam Won] will be out in June. It's about the lives of eight teenagers entering university and their romantic / comedic / lively misadventures to graduate on time. That's basically it in a nutshell.

Tom Talush - one with the spikey hair. Tom is a high school delinquent who finally graduates to enter Rondom University. After years of repeated senior high, Tom perfects his first exam that leads him to a great deal of expectation amongst his peers and teachers, especially a girl that captures her heart, Nicole. The twist of fate pushes him change himself, in order for the good things to continue. And for Tom to know Nicole better.

Eric Brick - [bio not available yet]

Erika Brick - [bio not available yet]

Nicole Petite - a sweet young girl who is rather clumsy and shy. Whenever she gets nervous she experience [sometimes severe] cases of nosebleeds. Her frequent nosebleeds made her anemic and narcoleptic. In effect, she doesn't excel in sports or any grueling activities, her attendance over the past has been excellent. Nicole also cooks like a professional, one might say that it's one of her strong points. She's quite scary at first but is really understanding, patient and just looking for acceptance of the way she is.

Sam Sarah Michaels - [bio not available yet]

Isaac Fossier - [bio not available yet]

Danny David - [bio not available yet]

Evany Colhart - She's a very athletic girl. Her athletic capabilities also make her flexible in dancing. In fact, she's a break dancer and pull off B-girl tricks. Evany is a kinesthetic genius but she has troubles when it comes to Language and Science. She met Tom when Tom saved her from a group of thugs in a backalley right after basketball practice. Ever since that day, Evany has been obsessed of Tom.

I know the plot is simple, but its simplicity will branch out eventually. That's my plan. I'm doing a different drawing style with this project, I'm looking for a simpler way of its art, since I have to finish each drawing as fast as I can without compromising the 'quality'. Wenk, not that I'm a good artist or whatever. I'm also rooting for myself to buy a decent PC tablet.

Meanwhile, my e-novel called THE NEVERENDING SCRAPBOOK AND SOMETHING ELSE [under pen name Noa Nimhus] will be out this July.

Due to multiple problems from multiple fronts of his life, Karl Cayanan goes on a soul searching quest to search for answers and hopefully himself. While traveling for days, weeks, months maybe?-- Karl ended up short on supplies for his quest. He grew hungry and short on cash and his bike also broke down along the trip. Walking in desperation to avoid the heat and possibly death, he rests under a shed. Eventually, he closes his eyes to sleep. Little does he know that he's unconscious, until he was able to wake up and find a girl sitting beside him, apparently waiting. After waking up, he discovers his knapsack and his possessions missing. Just who is this girl? What happens to Karl next? Who stole Karl's stuff? Is the author crazy? Find out when THE NEVERENDING SCRAPBOOK AND SOMETHING ELSE establishes its internet link on July.

That's it. Oh yeah, don't think I'm forgetting this fansite. No no no. I just need to change my priorities a bit. Spring break is two weeks away. There'll be plenty of time to update. And finally publish Mii-chan's blog.

diary : future slice of my life?

2008-02-25T23:40:00.002-06:00

I just bought a new computer before the end of 2007, exactly afternoon-evening of December 31st. It took a lot of money out of me and I'm still suffering the whiplash. I don't care, I have a new computer.

Anyway, my Parents were wondering how I've been able to save despite my cash drawback.

I wonder too, but I pulled it off. I think it's just my urge to buy something that made me save. -- that doesn't make any sense, does it?

In other words, if one want to buy something but doesn't have the money: either get a job and work hard... or get a piggy bank and save hard. I just saved... not that hard. Simple. However, it isn't so simple when there's a lot of things one wants to buy.

I bought games because I was craving for new ones. Just junk. That's my Parent's opinion. Or maybe yet, an adult's opinion. But they were still impressed how I managed my money. Why? I didn't have a job call this January, and my allowance has been cut to $20 a week.

Anyway, it's not junk. It's an asset! (Yeah, thank you Accounting for the term.) In a time when Videogame studios make tons of money from making games, one cannot say that the junk of before is still the junk of today. Games aren't junks. People make a living by creating games today.

That's right! It would offend them if you call their work 'junk'.

Don't get me wrong, my Parents were just kidding. I think they meant that I should've bought a variety of things, rather than one kind of merchandise [games], right? I didn't mind. I'll just save for later and take their advise again. Then, I'll buy mostly Movie DVDs. Idiot.

Or a Wii. ~wee!

Oh man, I feel that school work's going to be stiff. Of all that time doing nothing but waiting and studying because there's nothing else to do... well, now that there's something else to do, I wonder if I still have time to study. I should. Or else, my arguments (e.g arguments of skipping class / staying up late) won't become valid with my class card failing to back me up.

The reason that my Parents allow me to stay up late and play or whatever is because I have decent grades. Does it sound hypocritical?

Speaking of class card, now that I'm able to blog back in FruitsBlogsket, I'm not quite sure where to start rebuilding this site. Inactivity isn't my habit -- not all the time.

L to R: Rachel Synclair, Cherish DeVera [profile to be posted in the future]

There's a story why I took a long absence in updating FruitsBlogsket. I've been doing a multitude number of web projects; my own web projects. These two of my drawings are from my e-novel: "Yuu, Andy, Ai", a pun for You and I, if I will.

I know, I know. An e-novel? Me? BWAHARHARHAR. ye right.

No, it's true. I am writing e-novels. I'm using different multiple mediums of art and writing. It's taking me a long time to build it because I have no outside help creating the platform and writing. And I have work, school, film course, my life, my Playstation, my food, etc. *inhales*

I just pray for the best.

Anyway, tomorrow's going to be the big kahuna for me in Filming. WAH! I don't even know what I'm going to do. Fortunately, we've already blocked our scenes. I just hope I won't trouble the party. I'm still new to indie filming.

My life's going to get tougher overall.

diary : the saturday I've been waiting for

2008-02-16T13:55:00.005-06:00

It's just sad isn't it? If Valentine's Day just passes by without getting anything. Even just a simple greeting, or a handshake or a friendly conversation. I mean nothing. So how was your Valentines? Fortunately, at least someone said 'Happy Valentines' to me. And a friendly conversation afterwards.

And no I wasn't expecting for a chocolate. Hah, I wish.

My February 14 was a passive one. It just flew by. Hm, not that I celebrate it much. For me, February 14 isn't that big. You can't blame me. Experience. All of my Valentines Days were simple. Still, the past experience didn't scar me for life.

On the other side, I do know some people who celebrate it En Grande. I wonder how they do it.

I don't feel bad if I didn't get anything this past Valentine's Day. But seeing how people get all mushy and extra 'generous' to their partner during Valentines, I think it's a nice experience.

Obviously.

Shift. I watched a play last Thursday. Well, technically, I watched it twice since I decided to watch it again yesterday. It's called 'Twilight'. The play was written by my teachers. It's about a girl, who lost her memory, living with her older twin sister. She was an aspiring novelist who didn't believe in ghosts. One day, she found a story on her computer and, apparently, that story is about her life in the past. She denies writing it on the computer. And day after day the girl deletes the file, does some other measures so that the computer wouldn't start. This will prove that she's not writing about her 'forgotten past'. Moreover, how could she write it if she doesn't remember? In the end, the computer kept turning itself on and the story kept going until it sparks her memory back and reveal a dark past. I think it was an interesting supernatural play.

With the cast doing tours on other schools of Winnipeg, I won't be having Pre-cal for two days. That would give me a spare time -- at last.

I've never had a free slot before. Sigh.

It has been a grueling week. I don't have class on Monday. So YEY for the long weekend. It's perfect.

Anyway:

I haven't been blogging for a while. But I'm just darn thankful that some people keep coming back. I really am. Thanks for FruitsBlogsket's 31000+ hits! It has been awesome until now despite the lack of activity and content. Yet it still is awesome. Please keep the hits coming.

diary : and it's only the start

2008-02-13T23:56:00.001-06:00

Sigh, yesterday was the worst. This winter is killing me. The storm yesterday gave me a headache and it was my first experience to wait outside under the cold.

I forgot my textbook yesterday and I wasn't able to do my homework. I did it during lunch hour and rushed my work. But still, I wasn't able to finish it. That homework cost me my lunch and I was hungry. I skipped lunch and finished the rest of my subjects.

After 3:30, I went to Artspace to attend my film course. We studied Lumiere Films, 1 minute 1 shot, no cuts no dialogs. And after that, we were told to make our own story.

Despite the headache, exhaustion and hunger, I was able to draw out five stories. Other people drew up their interesting stories. In the end, I picked my top one and, I'm really thankful that they love my idea. I just hope I expect my film would be interesting.

Anyway, after two hours of discussion, I ran downstairs and to the bus stop to catch the bus. I wanted to test my body how it works in the cold. Again, I was hungry, my head was spinning, and it was cold. *but I insisted not go home yet* I waited for 15 minutes because the bus got late. Yes, the wait was a joy ride. I thought my nose was bleeding from the cold. But fortunately, it was just snot.

Fortunately?

I rode the bus to go to the local mall and find the stuff I wanted to buy. It was seven and the temperature was dropping. I hurried and the next ride home is drawing to a close. It sucked ass when I only found one of the two things I wanted to buy. I checked my watch and there was still time to switch malls. But I thought again because of the temperature and the distance. It's chicken feed to do it during summer, but I ended up redoubting my decision. I chose not to, so I waited for the bus.

I didn't know where the exact place to wait. I just wrote the bus stop number and didn't actually set foot on it. So I went outside the mall to go see. I spent a bit of time walking and running looking for it under the cold. When I found it, there was 10 minutes left for my ride to arrive.

I didn't think of going inside to avoid the cold because the mall was considerably far. Walking back would cost me about 4 minutes and I was really tired. So I chose to wait inside the shed. It was still cold by the way. So I waited.

Hungry, dizzy, tired, weak, and weary, with a dab of headache, I waited. I looked around but no bus. I looked around once more and I chanced upon an electronic screen that flashes advertisements. I found out that it was -13C, which isn't that bad I thought. Oh, well. The wait was still on.

Finally, when the bus arrived, a smile was written on my face. I was relieved but my headache didn't tone down. I hurriedly got inside to warm myself. But then the bus didn't move right away. Right. Ten more minutes?

After the ten minutes of waiting inside the bus, it finally moved and I almost puked. My woozy state just got worse and I officially wasn't feeling fine. I had to go home fast. Too bad, I'm riding the bus.

Eventually, I endured.

When I arrived home, I slowly walked to open the door. My head was throbbing and the world was spinning. I wonder how I didn't collapse on my way home.

I just wanted to sleep. Sleep. Sleep. Sleep. It was in my mind. But I skipped lunch and I only had a small breakfast. So I had to eat before I sleep. They were watching American Idol, but I didn't bother. Going to sleep right after eating is a no no. I stayed up for a while, in my ill condition. I just told everyone that I had a headache, but the truth is, I felt like I was going to collapse.

Tuesdays and Thursdays are tough. School + Film is one heck of a routine for a normal student. Especially when there are homeworks and exams everyday.

And now that it's almost Thursday, I have to do this again. But without going to the local mall. What the hell was I thinking?

Oh man, I am so messed up right now.

diary : remember 2007?

2008-01-01T00:35:00.000-06:00

2007 has been a fruitful year. I may not be able to write everything down today, but my 2007 has been a great year. I've had a lot of ups and, yeah some downs. But overall, I've learned a lot. I tell you, my experience has been a roller-coaster ride.

As I live my Filipino lifestyle in Canada, I noticed: Asan na paputok ko? I can't light an ordinary firecracker or a roman candle here. I need a permit. It's not bad really. I guess it's a big adjustment. Sigh, fireworks. I didn't see any.

It's just how I experience 19 change of years. And I miss doing it. Although, I prefer to watch fireworks rather than handling them. It's really cold and quiet outside. And now I think I have an idea what New Year looks like here in Winnipeg. Yeah, I miss spending New Year in the Philippines.

I'm in my uncle Noel's house right now. We're having a New Year's reunion. I'm with my uncles, aunts, and cousins from my mother side. We laid out a simple feast. Yes, it might not look grand, but it's just right; better than throwing nothing.

2007 has been a good start for us, as newly arrived family. My dad has an excellent job. My brother is really doing great -- he just got married by the way. And my mom has been able to experience Canadian Work err... experience. While my little sister's doing good at school, I am doing unbelievably great. Yeah, let's just say that I'm doing really really really great in school. I'm really grateful and relieved. My current high school performance would give me an advantage after graduation. It'll be helpful too if I land any scholarship. That would help my Parents with my tuition in College or University.

2007 is also the year where I was able to ride my first airplane; not to mention live in another country, see snow, feel very cold, speak English and so on. 2007 is a whole new experience and I'll never forget it.

Happy Holidays

2007-12-22T21:13:00.000-06:00

I'd like to take this opportunity to thank everybody who visited my humble website. Seasons Greetings and Happy Holidays!

diary : and going back!

2007-12-07T00:53:00.000-06:00

Hwoooh *deep sigh*. After doing my homework, studying for our History exam tomorrow... err... later this day, washing the dishes and cleaning the kitchen, now I can blog.

Wait... what was I supposed to write?

Oh yeah. It's my first time to cough up blood AND IT'S NOT tuberculosis. I also had a case of a nosebleed. But I didn't have any headache or anything painful. It's just, a small sign of blood started flowing down my nose. All of that action on a Monday morning.

... and I was about to take a bath and go to school.

I stayed home for three days. I wonder what my teachers were thinking. I'm skipping again. Well, it's not that they're that concerned, I mean, there are a bunch of kids skipping in my class too -- ON A DAILY BASIS. But I'm one of them people who rarely skip class. Morally speaking, skipping is BAD. So don't skip. But skipping is so common on our case, that it's really funny. The school is like a ghost town during Fridays.

Anyway, I went to see a doctor the next day and he said that it's a part of winter adjustment. My dad also says that he finds blood on his phlegm. Ahhh- huh. But it doesn't hurt to be safe and sure -- most of the time. Winter adjustment or plain exhaustion, or both, I'm feeling better now.

I hate seeing blood. But I love talking and writing about it. Weird. It's why I didn't take nursing.

diary : HELL WEEK OVER!

2007-12-01T00:34:00.000-06:00

Holy-- My November just passed me by! I thought it was still November. When, I checked the date on my laptop and, I was blown away when it said December 1st. So it's finally here! Welcome, my December. Please be gentle.

My hell week is finally over. I didn't do any stuff on the internet this week, primarily because of school. I finished 4 school projects, and 'aced' 2 math unit tests. I am a little bit proud of myself having wrapped up everything quite well.

I'm really sorry being absent in this weblog. Though, I found a few feedbacks that might help me with Fruitsblogsket's further development this coming Christmas vacation. Yep, Christmas vacation also gives me time to further build each of my fansites.

I usually go out often when during Christmas. But there's too much snow outside, and it's very cold... so I don't know if I could still pull that habit off.

I've also been working on my web-project. I've been able to further find more stories and branched them out. It's official: for the first time in my life, I actually need a particle board or a white board to make my planning possible. I'm working on several web projects and my friend is also busy with his university work, so I'm left doing the extra effort.

Anyway, here's a side-character for my Project X: (Nikki Rosendale)

Her name's Nikki Rosendale, and she has a relationship with a guy named Ron Emran. Nikki thinks that both of them are inseparable. She doesn't want to leave Ron. Even though Ron tends to be violent towards her. Why and what do I mean? You'll soon find out.

AND Here's my initial synopsis for another project called "Yuu, Andy, Ai."

diary : lessons to be learned

2007-11-05T00:47:00.000-06:00

While I was away, I've been able to discover two potential updates for Fruitsblogsket. Fruitsblogsket will be updated this week and I will make sure it will. Things have been extra busy at school and it's like the teachers are conspiring because they gave us school projects at the same time. Coincidence? I think not! ~haha. Anyway, I'm also looking forward to my new 20' flat TV. Yeah, I just bought one and now I'm broke. Also, since it's November, my other fansites [i.e. CYF Love Hina and SchoolRumblog] will be back on regular programming. Their hiatus will be lifted. I needed to put them on hiatus to focus on my own project. These are some screenshots to what I've accomplished so far:

Today's already Monday early in the morning. I'm still awake and I'm expecting two math exams today. It's only a matter of time 'til winter. For me, winter's here. I hope my brain won't turn cold.

diary : 'took me half an hour to write this

2007-10-23T13:48:00.000-05:00

It's the start of another week. I was late on my first period. Woh boy, I have a bad feeling about this. Well you know, if I just started the week wrong, it might end up wrong.

I've just started a few e-novels. [the crowd goes WHAT?!] I know. [a few? what are you? stupid?] I hope someone would read them when each chapter is ready. [Aww, screw this! Run everybody! Run! Save yourselves!] There's a reason why I made a few. I won't tell the reason yet, because I don't want to start spreading something that might not be true in the end. Plus my work is still on its early developments. [like anyone cares] I'd chuckle for that. I don't know if anyone would care. Like I care. I just write for fun.

In general, I'm doing an internet novel. The genres would revolve around high school life, romance, comedy, slice of life, mystery and even horror. Some chapters are inspired from true to life events from my life. One of them is Do What Eye Tell You.

Do What Eye Tell You is a story about a girl who survived a near death experience from a somewhat supernatural accident. The world and how she sees it changed forever and she has never been the same after the incident.

And another:

Ivan Synclair is an average high-schooler. He hates his nickname, "Ai", because it sounds like a girl -- his close friends, Mayumi Hanarumi and Andy Rodriguez gave him that nickname since they were little. Ivan calls Mayumi Hanarumi as "Yuu" and Andy as erm... "Andy". All of them loves to play different kinds of sport. They would play baseball, frisbee even basketball together. All of them hate school, especially Yuu and Andy, but Ivan's a bit of a grade A student without him even realizing it.

Ivan has a twin sister named Rachel but she's minutes younger. Ivan and Rachel has been together ever since they were babies. [Oo! Magkapatid sila noong bata pa!] He has no father, but her mother's close to both of them.

In time, Ivan realized that there's something wrong in his body. He's been having dreams of blood and gore every night for weeks. What do they mean? There's a story why his father abandoned his family. There's a story why Rachel is extra close to his older brother. There will be a story of how he would be with his friends, especially Yuu, as the story progresses. There's a story why Rachel keeps saying that she will be with his Ivan forever.

I call this project Yuu, Andy, Ai. A pun for You and-- [dude, it's not fun when you explain the pun] Oh, right.

I'm also writing short stories using one of my favorite PC games. There are no secrets for this one. I'm using the game The Sims 2 to present a reality blog. I hope this one would turn out okay.

I'm still far away from achieving this stuff. Even if I concentrate on one story, I'd still need a lot of time to think things through. I don't want to just write it for the sake of finishing it. I'm planning and stuff, so that it would be really, at least, properly presented. Plus, this stuff counts for a University requirement here in Canada.

[I still can't believe it. You? Write a novel? Bulloney]

diary : we're moving out!

2007-10-06T10:11:00.000-05:00

We're moving out. I'll be staying at an apartment. We're finally going to get settled. This is the moment I've been waiting for. A new start. I'm going to miss going home in my uncle's house.

And no. Fruitsblogsket isn't moving away.

diary : can't hold on much longer

2007-09-25T22:51:00.000-05:00

Sigh. I'm tired. We have this huge Pop-Culture project in English that needs to be done before next week. It's like the whole class is in a hurry. Come on, classes have just started. Speaking of start, I don't know where to start with that project. I probably should consult my group tomorrow; find out their strengths and preferred field.

Our objective is that we have to present the 'Popular Culture' of each decade: the 50s, 60s, 70s, 80s, and 90s. We shouldn't use too much text and reading aloud the presentation is prohibited -- so text isn't good. Instead, we will present with our tongue and with our diagrams.

Our presentation will be highly Audio-Visual, because Mr. Shaw thinks that it's boring if we just botch a block of texts on the presentation. Well it is kind of boring when all you see is text. This is a heavy project for me. It's worth 100 points.

We picked the 90s because, I, for one, know some of the fads and trends of it. After picking the 90s, we divided the work and assigned each member a category. I picked Music, Cars and Technology. I probably would be handling Fashion as well. What we need is the whole participation of the group to contribute 'cultural changing' Movies and Television.

Too bad Reality TV wasn't around at that time. I just have to work fast -- I mean 'we' [hopefully].

Anyway, you might be wondering about the picture. It's school work. I swear, it's school work.

We were told to take pictures today. But we weren't able to bring our own camera so we borrowed one. When we tried our borrowed cam, holy cow, the picture turned out really good! We kind of abused it and took pictures of our own. And voila, Friendster pictures. Anyway, we weren't really that off-track using it. I mean after all, we were supposed to take portraits of each other.

That camera was awesome. I wanted to run away with it. Oh man, I love photography and I would love to have that camera. I forgot the model -- geez. I should ask Mr. Hegel how much it costs.

Thinking of school tomorrow is already making me tired. 'Better hit the sack then.

random thoughts 2

2007-09-17T23:16:00.000-05:00

I hate Mathematics. But I didn't thought that I'd get the hang of it at school. Or maybe I already took up the lessons before. After all, I'm back in high school to accomplish my prerequisites for University entrance.

One is the loneliest number.

I need more money so I could share my blessings here on Canada to the my friends and family at home, The Philippines.

I must finish my secret project(s) before October 28.

I rarely get long sleep. My brother uses the laptop to chat. He only finishes after 11PM or so. It's a big problem if I need to continue pursuing webdevelopment. By the way, my every finished work in the internet counts for my portfolio. It is essential to submit a portfolio when aspiring to have a career in Arts, Graphics, Communication or Information Technology.

I never thought Photography could be so hard. Plus expensive. Cameras these days are cheap but there are only a few number of models which are cheap without compromising features and capture performance. It's hard to find them. On the expensive side, only a few models are crappy. So you'll get more bang for your buck.

I miss my PHS classmates.

FruitsBlogsket will have another page element.

I can't lick my elbow. No one can. If you pull it off, email me.

Two of my Fansites are under hiatus. FruitsBlogsket isn't one of them. Wee.

I support open-source technology.

Whoah, it's already 11:26. Tomorrow's Tuesday and Pre-Cal will be a problem -- Software Apps. as well. History and English might be trouble. Maybe Applied Math will join the fray. I couldn't even play Basketball during lunch period. Harsh.

Can I be smart?

diary : getting back to the hang of it

2007-09-10T23:56:00.001-05:00

Classes have started and I'm finally getting the hang of it. Considering I'm a new kid in the block, nobody picked on me (not that I'm being picked at nor should be picked at) and my first day wasn't bad. It was a bit boring, yes, but -- come on -- it's the norm when the ball just started rolling; new faces, a quiet classroom, nothing to do yet. However, they did give us homeworks on the first day of class. Bleah.

I'm currently studying in Elmwood High. I know. Welcome back to High School, Jed.

diary : are you living in the year 2007?

2007-08-30T00:04:00.000-05:00

YOU KNOW YOU ARE LIVING IN 2007 when...

1. You accidentally enter your password on the microwave.
2. You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years.
3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of 3.
4. You e-mail the person who works at the desk next to you.
5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends and family is that they don't have e-mail addresses.
6. You pull up in your own driveway and use your mobile phone to see if anyone is home to help you carry in the groceries.
7. Every commercial on television has a web site at the bottom of the screen.
8. Leaving the house without your mobile phone, which you didn't have the first 20 or 30 (or 60) years of your life, is now a cause for panic and you turn around to go and get it.
10. You get up in the morning and go on line before getting your coffee.
11. You start tilting your head sideways to smile. :)
12. You're reading this and nodding and laughing.
13. Even worse, you know exactly to whom you are going to forward this message.
14. You are too busy to notice there was no #9 on this list.
15. You actually scrolled back up to check that there wasn't a #9 on this list

diary : basketball woes

2007-08-23T01:21:00.000-05:00

It's funny to play a basketball game with my younger cousin. In the end, he's still human. When he wins, he gets full of himself. When he losses, he keeps quiet about the game. Oh well, I can't blame him. He is a basketball player and I'm not. I'm just in for the game so that there'd be a 2on2 match; plus my height. Dribbling, not a skill inside me. As for shooting, I just nail lucky shots.

I wasn't in the condition to play. I helped my Mom with business before the game. I walked 3 kilometers to our destination and 3 kilometers to go back home. After that, it was game time. Sounds like excuses right?

I didn't want to say that excuse in front of them. I didn't want to disappoint them and they'll just make fun of me if I refuse, I'm sure. So my younger cousin paired up with my older brother and I teamed up with his older brother and the ball was let loose. They lead two games in the end.

As for me, it's not a big deal to win a basketball game. I win, I'm happy. Simple.

And now we demand a rematch.