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I'm sorry for my absence. I'm in a frenzied mess right now. And August isn't just the month for me. My childhood best friend passed away and my pet dog passed away as well. It wasn't easy. Anyway, I'm not here to make you guys depressed. I've been such a person for a while now. I better move on. I'm fine by the way. Despite my loss, I'll be okay.
Yes, August is almost over and summer as well. School is two weeks away. It'll be fun. Haha... ahhh... don't try to be funny. My class starts at Sept. 8 but mine starts on the 10th. I'll be in the University of Winnipeg. It's close to home and close to work. That is, if I'll still work in my usual workplace. I plan to work part-time in campus.
So what have I been doing these past couple of weeks? Nothing much. Writing stories. Drawing. Playing videogames. Reading. And playing some more. I plan to go paint-balling and probably do an emergency camping with some friends next week. I'm also building a website based on nostalgia. I feel that my brain is running out of hard disk space and so I need to write it down before I forget. I lawl when I read some of my entries written back in the good ol' days. I intend to trip my memory into a nostalgic overdrive.
By the way, it's getting colder. Bah! Kimikimkimster is not amused.
I can't do anything with this numbness in my head. I've scratched this cliche too much that I don't recognize the drama is all about. This is the simple sadness that I feel. The feeling where people think too much how they'd describe, the color that blurs the day and the night, the wall that blocks your path to your norm, when will I get over with it? Just as love makes a person crazy, depression will make a person crazy as well. I wonder how pain would cease pain.
This is the reality of life. It's not always milk and honey, I fear. I don't even know why I'm tired. When I went to work, I was tired already. I've had 10 hours of sleep. I'm not sure what's happening in my life. My thoughts have dried. I find no meaning in rest. Sleep is just a distraction. Each week feels the same. I feel like I'm not making progress in life. And I feel like I'm not getting any satisfaction. The past weeks have just been terrible for me. If today's problem isn't fixed, that means doubled trouble tomorrow.
I'm not even interested to write. It's like my enthusiasm shut down. I'm suffering from depression with a hint of boredom including burnout accompanied by confusion altogether.