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I was on my way back to my room when my mom called me. After hearing what she had said, I fell on the floor with the whole world in black and white.
I am depressed to write, but I think the depression will consume me if I do nothing. I'm afraid I won't be able to smile for a couple of days. I honestly found it hard to smile. And I only know one pose when someone takes a picture of me; that is to smile.
My best friend passed away. I can't emphasize how close we are. She's almost my older sister and I treat her like family. She has been with me ever since I can remember. She was my best friend. From elementary, high school, to university. And when I come home from the university campus, not too often I see her, I realized how I was better having her in my life.
I picked myself up on the floor and told my mom I'd be okay. But then I found myself weary. The radio played one song in loop. All flashbacks imploded. My heart slowed down as tears finally made their way out. I couldn't sleep and I had work the next day. 3am I was still crying and I hugged my pillow for comfort. Everyone was asleep. They didn't hear me crying. I didn't intend to show anyone. However, I think they knew.
Three years after I left. It was a surprise for me. Next year I was planning to see her, bring her gifts and probably travel or have a feast at home; I guess, when I come home, I'll go see her and offer flowers.
I loved her dearly like an older sister. And things happened too fast. Does she know that I loved her? I know that I'll never meet such a person once more.
Don't take the lives who are dear to you for granted. Let your feelings be heard before it's too late. If you're reading this, just let them know; tell them I love you.
I always find it fun to pull up a chair, sit down while I think of the future. It's a way of reflection too. In this world where it's a race to be noticed, it's essential to take time and think. It's a way of peace and retreat.
I'm not sure of who I am. But I've got plans. Yes, I do. To be honest, I can see my friends discover themselves who they are. They've finished their studies and they're now working full-time. I feel happy for them that they've made it. I can only sigh aside as I work part-time to study and go back to university. Yeah, last time I know we were classmates. Now, we're worlds apart. I'll get there to my destination too. I've got to look forward.
On another topic, Onemanga.com is going bye bye -- which isn't something that I'm not looking forward to. I love Onemanga.com, it's a shame that I wasn't able to become a part of the community ever since I started reading at their website. Another Sims 3 expansion called Sims 3 Late Night is coming this fall. It's a reason why I need to buy a new computer because I've an old one. I'm a mad Simmer-- been in love with the Sims since... uh... The Sims. And another reason to buy a new PC is Starcraft 2 is nearly out this July 27. Just to give you an idea how psyched I am with the official release of Starcraft 2 -- I screamed like a girl when I saw the first trailer back in 2008. I guess I won't have enough for presents this Christmas.
Sigh. I'm still depressed about Onemanga.com shutting down.
I want to read Catcher in the Rye once again. I just want to make sure I don't feel like Holden Caulfield felt. In Maslow's hierarchy of needs, I remember my teacher telling me that there are people who don't obtain self-actualization. I guess what I'm trying to say is: I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO! or maybe bored. Don't worry about me. I'll figure out something. That's why I'm waiting for the coming fall. I'll be a university student once more. I just want to study for the mean time. I meant study as my primary routine. Erm... I meant having fun and studying should be tied at the top. Earning money should be my third priority. What's second? Sleep.